I'm in a bit of a bind and I feel like a bit of a bother by even posting this.  I've been a long time sufferer of depression; sometimes it's manageable and I can go on with life merrily, while other times I really struggle to get out of bed in the morning and cope with life.  I also have OCD which makes me dwell on every kind of problem, whether it exists or not, and I cannot distract myself no matter how hard I try.

 

I have been rather depressed ever since February of this year, for reasons partially personal to do with family and with a move to a place that I hate.  I still do not know anyone here; I don't have friends, and my spouse is almost always working (works overtime).  I've become very withdrawn and feel so deeply sad all of the time.  Nothing sounds like fun, not even gaming or writing (two things that I used to be very passionate about).  I have also reached a new awareness concerning religion and find that my prior beliefs may not necessarily be true.  This has also made me feel very insecure and lost, to the point that I don't even know if there is a God.  I feel that, deep down, I know what I used to believe in is true and that I will go to hell if I don't believe and act upon those beliefs, but I also know that one can believe in what they grew up with even if it's not true.  So, I'm spiritually a mess, have no one to turn to, and I feel panicked, sad, and completely at a loss.  I was speaking with my college advisor the other day and made the comment that I don't want to take on too many classes because I'm having it rough lately and have been depressed, and all she did was look at me and say, "Well, you seem fine."  I fake a smile all the time and compose myself because I have to, but inside it's killing me and I can't stand it!  I also really upset my spouse when I'm depressed, so now I feel forced to hide it all the time.

 

I'm wondering if I should seek therapy to try to get this sorted out, but I'm not sure.  I've attempted therapy in the past but it has never really worked out for me.  I just feel like I can never be myself without upsetting anyone, so I can't even talk about my problems, which are abundant.  I'm not exactly giving the full story partly because this is a public forum and I hate the idea of anyone just coming out of the woodwork and reading all of this, but hopefully this is enough information to go by.  I have a feeling that the overwhelming response will be to seek therapy, but I'm so opposed to the idea, for a few reasons.  Has anyone been able to work through depression on their own, and at these extremities?  It's been a very long time since I've contemplated taking my life, and even then it was only contemplation rather than truly considering it, so it is just depression.  I feel like I'm a burden to everyone and that everyone--my spouse especially--would just be better off without me, which makes me so very sad.  And then of course I have the fear of hell over my head constantly which clouds my judgment and thoughts about life.  It's just a never-ending cycle of pain. : (

Edited August 4, 201510 yr by Mystics Apprentice

I'm sorry to hear all this Mystics. I've always seen you as a lovely and strong person. I think you should do so, Mystics should be happy!

Okay, if anyone could have read this and actually be able to help you, it is me. I have suffered through a lot and I still suffer. I even thought at one point that everyone hates me and literally I thought that to be accurate. I ended up being depress myself, and even if you fake the best smile in the world, that isn't what you feel on the inside. But to be honest, even though I take a type of therapy, the main reason why I am here and able to do better is just because I had someone who could help me start to see clearer, and not be so depressed. What you need is an angel's touch to help mend your heart, and that Angel doesn't even have to be an actual one, it just needs to be someone who can pull your heart away from what you are feeling. It won't be easy, and there will be days when you want to give up, but in the end, things will be better, maybe not completely healed, but better.

 

And don't forget, I am always here, even when I am offline, I am here.

I didn't bother reading because I feel that if you are concerned enough that you might consider therapy, then you should probably try therapy. Even if you're not as troubled as you think you are, it still doesn't hurt, considering all it is meant for is to help you feel better. It can really help to have someone to talk to about your issues on a regular basis who can actually give sound feedback and advice as to how to manage the various barriers of your life. I guess the only risk is that depending on who you see it might be a bit pricey, but if you have a stable enough income and it's for the sake of having a more stable life, I'd say it's worth the price. Go for it!

Don't be afraid of any sort of hell. I learned not to be bothered by religion and just live my life happily. If there is a superior being, I believe that's what he would've wanted. As for therapy, it might not be a bad idea. My best friend and girlfriend both suffered from depression as well so I know what you're going through. But just know it does get better, and we're all here to help. 

I tried handling my depression on my own, feeling that I don't need therapy. It's been a while now and if it's one bit of advice i can give you it's that you should definitely go to a therapist.Therapy will give you a trained professional to whom you can speak about the things that are bothering you and will help you deal with your problems.And never let yourself feel as if going to therapy means your crazy or something- you're not!Give it a try and I hope it works out for you,(And don't be frustrated if things don't start getting better within a few days. Recovering from depression takes time)

One thing that is very often overlooked when talking about going to therapy, is finding a therapist that is right for you. The whole point is to have a place where you can just talk freely about whatever, and not feel like you're being a burden on other people. So if you've tried therapy and you felt like you couldn't say everything you wanted to say, then try another therapist.

Also, I'm not religious, but I know you won't go to hell for doubting your beliefs. Hell is reserved for the ones that act wrongly, and reflecting and thinking critically about yourself is never wrong. 

Lastly, the thing I always do is trying to solve everything on my own. And while I'm not 100% sure I myself suffer from depression (I tend to repress problems to make them seem smaller), I know it's not something you can overcome by yourself. So please give it another shot.

I'm sorry to hear all this Mystics. I've always seen you as a lovely and strong person. I think you should do so, Mystics should be happy!

Aww, why thank you, Sora.  You've always been a great friend. : )  I guess I partly feel guilty for seeking therapy because I want to conquer everything myself, amongst personal reasons, but I feel I truly need to consider it.  Thank you for your kind words!  I needed them.

 

Okay, if anyone could have read this and actually be able to help you, it is me. I have suffered through a lot and I still suffer. I even thought at one point that everyone hates me and literally I thought that to be accurate. I ended up being depress myself, and even if you fake the best smile in the world, that isn't what you feel on the inside. But to be honest, even though I take a type of therapy, the main reason why I am here and able to do better is just because I had someone who could help me start to see clearer, and not be so depressed. What you need is an angel's touch to help mend your heart, and that Angel doesn't even have to be an actual one, it just needs to be someone who can pull your heart away from what you are feeling. It won't be easy, and there will be days when you want to give up, but in the end, things will be better, maybe not completely healed, but better.And don't forget, I am always here, even when I am offline, I am here.

You've got it right down to a T.  That feeling that you're a burden to the world and that no one likes you is pretty much how I feel, or at least people that I know in person.  I am very limited as far as who I can turn to for support, and those who I can turn to (about three people) have either expressed disinterest in helping or I feel I've exhausted them with my woes.  I have so many insecurities and so many fears that I just can't contain.  And then, as you said, trying to force the smile only makes it worse.  I've been through therapy without success which is partly why I'm hesitant because I don't have the money to waste if it's unsuccessful, but what you said makes a lot of sense.  I'm in a place where I'm rather isolated and the only one I know in the state alone is my spouse, who already has more than anyone should bear on one's shoulders, let alone with me breaking down because I can't stand life.

 

Thank you, so very much for understanding my position.  You gave me a lot of encouragement and hope, and most especially made me feel like I'm not quite so alone.  While I'm saddened to hear that you've been through this and can only hope that your situation has improved manyfold for you, it is a bit relieving to hear that it's a normal thing to feel like everyone dislikes you and that you're a burden. It makes me think that it might not actually be true! 

 

I didn't bother reading because I feel that if you are concerned enough that you might consider therapy, then you should probably try therapy. Even if you're not as troubled as you think you are, it still doesn't hurt, considering all it is meant for is to help you feel better. It can really help to have someone to talk to about your issues on a regular basis who can actually give sound feedback and advice as to how to manage the various barriers of your life. I guess the only risk is that depending on who you see it might be a bit pricey, but if you have a stable enough income and it's for the sake of having a more stable life, I'd say it's worth the price. Go for it!

If you didn't bother reading then how can you know why I was asking the question?  Forgive me if I misunderstood this statement, but I found it to be a little insensitive.  I have been through therapy in the past without success and need a little nudge: either that I need to try again or that I do have what it takes to overcome this.  Normally I would just blow it off, but I have *way* too much at stake to go wrong and leave this as-is.  I need to either take action and need encouragement to make the changes necessary to overcome my depression before it ruins my life and marriage, or I need to seek therapy.  I'm in a slight financial bind in terms of therapy costs so, yes, it will sort of hurt if I go unnecessarily, plus there's a bit of negative stigma around me for going.  It's not as easy as simply *choosing* to go, which is why I created this thread.  So, yes, I think it may be serious enough for me to go, but I want to fix this on my own if people have and think I could.

 

Don't be afraid of any sort of hell. I learned not to be bothered by religion and just live my life happily. If there is a superior being, I believe that's what he would've wanted. As for therapy, it might not be a bad idea. My best friend and girlfriend both suffered from depression as well so I know what you're going through. But just know it does get better, and we're all here to help. 

I really wish that I could do this.  I have lived under a very strict religious household with extreme beliefs of hell, which I'm not sure that I agree with.  I do make sense of what you're saying, however.  It's just difficult to let go of something that I've believed all of my life which, deep down, I still believe to be true.  It doesn't help that my current mental state disallows me to see a situation clearly without "doom and destruction."  Still, I thank you greatly for your kind words and reassurances. : )  My best wishes to your best friend and girlfriend; I hope that their depression is much better now, because it is a bear to live with.

 

I tried handling my depression on my own, feeling that I don't need therapy. It's been a while now and if it's one bit of advice i can give you it's that you should definitely go to a therapist.Therapy will give you a trained professional to whom you can speak about the things that are bothering you and will help you deal with your problems.And never let yourself feel as if going to therapy means your crazy or something- you're not!Give it a try and I hope it works out for you,(And don't be frustrated if things don't start getting better within a few days. Recovering from depression takes time)

Your post was amongst the most helpful.  Thank you, and I must say that we share a similar mindset.  I partly feel that I don't need therapy and that it's my mind and I should be able to get better on my own.  The problem is I've been trying it for years--most especially over the past five months--to get over this depression and I cannot get out of my "doom and destruction" mindset.  A lot of it has to do with religious fears and trying to find what I believe in, but a lot of it has to do with feeling worthless and feeling so very alone, as though I can't turn to anyone for help even getting through my desperate, dark times.  I think the reason I was so inclined toward therapy was the fact that I'd actually have someone to talk to who can give me personal advice, but the problem is I've also tried therapy without success.  As Psychic Ketchup said, however, there's a matter of finding the right therapist, so perhaps I just haven't found a good one for me.

 

Thank you very, very much for your post, Col.Random.  I really appreciate your thoughtfulness and well wishes!

 

One thing that is very often overlooked when talking about going to therapy, is finding a therapist that is right for you. The whole point is to have a place where you can just talk freely about whatever, and not feel like you're being a burden on other people. So if you've tried therapy and you felt like you couldn't say everything you wanted to say, then try another therapist.

Also, I'm not religious, but I know you won't go to hell for doubting your beliefs. Hell is reserved for the ones that act wrongly, and reflecting and thinking critically about yourself is never wrong. 

Lastly, the thing I always do is trying to solve everything on my own. And while I'm not 100% sure I myself suffer from depression (I tend to repress problems to make them seem smaller), I know it's not something you can overcome by yourself. So please give it another shot.

What you mentioned is HUGE.  That is one reason why I see therapy as beneficial.  Being able to talk to someone without being a burden would be awesome, because right now I don't really have anyone that I can talk to that I feel comfortable freely expressing myself, or at least not without causing these people major pain that I don't wish to inflict.  I feel like I've done all of this to myself and don't want to hurt anyone else while I'm at it.  Perhaps I should try another therapist, though I'm just rather concerned about it, especially since finances are tight.  I'd love to just get over this on my own and feel that I should *snap out of it*.  It's just a huge interference with life that I need to properly address.

 

Concerning religion: I thank you greatly for this reassuring piece, and this is something that I so greatly want to believe.  I was raised with strong religious beliefs and a fear of hell being eternal, easy to attain, and very, very abhorrent.  In considering other belief systems I've begun to fear that I'm doubting what I believed in and am sentencing myself to hell, but I don't know if this is only because of my current mental state, what I was raised with, or actually from God.  Still, what you say makes a lot of sense, and I wish that I could grasp this.

 

Finally, thank you for your response and your kind words of wisdom.  You might be entirely right about being unable to overcome something such as depression on one's own.  It's just a matter of wanting to, y'know?

 

All-in-all, thank you, everyone, and I apologize once again if I sound like I'm whining by creating this thread.  I sort of wrote it in a moment of despair and was trying to decide on whether to keep an appointment or not (which I ended up canceling).  Everything is all, eh, just a mess, and I'm sorry.

Mystics, I may not be able to fully relate to your situation, but to know that you're in pain worries me. You're a good friend, very kind, funny, supportive, helpful, and overall a wonderful person to be around. You're definitely not a burden or a bother for making this topic, don't ever let anyone make you feel otherwise! While I may not be able to relate fully, surely hiding or keeping these feelings you're having bottled up inside of you can't do much good. I say go for it, or at least find someone you are comfortable speaking about all this with. I know it may be easier said than done, but know that you have my support 100% of the way, and if you ever need anything at all I'm always a PM, e-mail, or chat message away. 

 

You're an amazing person Mystics, and you deserve to be happy. I wish you all the best right now, and always. 

Although I don't know much about you, or even talk to you, I hope you feel better.

Taking this from someone who has gone through a whole lot of hell in their life, the one thing besides God that helped me was talking it out with a trusted friend. Venting helped me heal greatly and gave me a sounding board for my thoughts and feelings. There's nothing wrong with seeking therapy and I actually think it will help you in the long run. You need to learn to be yourself bc that's the only way to be! You need to realize what an awesome person you are and you don't need to be afraid of showing your true rad self! Remember you have to learn to love and be happy within yourself before you can love others and find happiness in general. You won't be able to get that from others no matter how much you think or hope you can. It all starts with you! You deserve happiness and peace within.

 

As for your struggles with God, I have my own personal testimony you can message me in private about. I think it's common to search for these deep answers that we hold close to our own identity and purpose. Especially if you were raised as such. But I have learned through my own personal experience what I spiritually believe in and it's not bc I also was raised that way. I have seen and experienced things that showed me without a shadow of a doubt that God was there and very real and no one could take that away from me. The bible says ask and you shall receive so maybe ask God to reveal himself to you? Seek and ye shall find! I know this subject is not easily discussed and there is no judgement here. Just understanding since I myself have struggled and fought my way through life. I am here for you anytime! Remember that!  If you do not want to seek professional help, at least try to talk and vent to a trusted friend. It's worked for me! Also, I can be that for you if you need me to be!

 

 

Edited August 4, 201510 yr by Flaming Lea

Depression, even self diagnosed, is no laughing matter. If you're still mentally capable enough to have reached this conclusion and realize that you need professional help, then do it. All I ask from you is to do your due diligence and find the right therapist for you. There are different schools of psychology, and as such will have different methods of 'treatment.' Find the one that works for you specifically.

 

If you really want to avoid professional therapy, the only other option would be to find a coping mechanism. Turning to vices and drugs isn't the best option [its actually worse] so find something that won't hurt you. I'm just saying: there's a reason I have 4 Kairi plushies.

 

Just my two cents. I'm on my phone at the time I've typed this, so I'm not able to offer my fullest advice.

 

From the guy who almost pulled the trigger twice,

Javelin.

Edited August 4, 201510 yr by Javelin434

Aww, why thank you, Sora.  You've always been a great friend. : )  I guess I partly feel guilty for seeking therapy because I want to conquer everything myself, amongst personal reasons, but I feel I truly need to consider it.  Thank you for your kind words!  I needed them.

 

You've got it right down to a T.  That feeling that you're a burden to the world and that no one likes you is pretty much how I feel, or at least people that I know in person.  I am very limited as far as who I can turn to for support, and those who I can turn to (about three people) have either expressed disinterest in helping or I feel I've exhausted them with my woes.  I have so many insecurities and so many fears that I just can't contain.  And then, as you said, trying to force the smile only makes it worse.  I've been through therapy without success which is partly why I'm hesitant because I don't have the money to waste if it's unsuccessful, but what you said makes a lot of sense.  I'm in a place where I'm rather isolated and the only one I know in the state alone is my spouse, who already has more than anyone should bear on one's shoulders, let alone with me breaking down because I can't stand life.

 

Thank you, so very much for understanding my position.  You gave me a lot of encouragement and hope, and most especially made me feel like I'm not quite so alone.  While I'm saddened to hear that you've been through this and can only hope that your situation has improved manyfold for you, it is a bit relieving to hear that it's a normal thing to feel like everyone dislikes you and that you're a burden. It makes me think that it might not actually be true! 

 

If you didn't bother reading then how can you know why I was asking the question?  Forgive me if I misunderstood this statement, but I found it to be a little insensitive.  I have been through therapy in the past without success and need a little nudge: either that I need to try again or that I do have what it takes to overcome this.  Normally I would just blow it off, but I have *way* too much at stake to go wrong and leave this as-is.  I need to either take action and need encouragement to make the changes necessary to overcome my depression before it ruins my life and marriage, or I need to seek therapy.  I'm in a slight financial bind in terms of therapy costs so, yes, it will sort of hurt if I go unnecessarily, plus there's a bit of negative stigma around me for going.  It's not as easy as simply *choosing* to go, which is why I created this thread.  So, yes, I think it may be serious enough for me to go, but I want to fix this on my own if people have and think I could.

 

I really wish that I could do this.  I have lived under a very strict religious household with extreme beliefs of hell, which I'm not sure that I agree with.  I do make sense of what you're saying, however.  It's just difficult to let go of something that I've believed all of my life which, deep down, I still believe to be true.  It doesn't help that my current mental state disallows me to see a situation clearly without "doom and destruction."  Still, I thank you greatly for your kind words and reassurances. : )  My best wishes to your best friend and girlfriend; I hope that their depression is much better now, because it is a bear to live with.

 

Your post was amongst the most helpful.  Thank you, and I must say that we share a similar mindset.  I partly feel that I don't need therapy and that it's my mind and I should be able to get better on my own.  The problem is I've been trying it for years--most especially over the past five months--to get over this depression and I cannot get out of my "doom and destruction" mindset.  A lot of it has to do with religious fears and trying to find what I believe in, but a lot of it has to do with feeling worthless and feeling so very alone, as though I can't turn to anyone for help even getting through my desperate, dark times.  I think the reason I was so inclined toward therapy was the fact that I'd actually have someone to talk to who can give me personal advice, but the problem is I've also tried therapy without success.  As Psychic Ketchup said, however, there's a matter of finding the right therapist, so perhaps I just haven't found a good one for me.

 

Thank you very, very much for your post, Col.Random.  I really appreciate your thoughtfulness and well wishes!

 

What you mentioned is HUGE.  That is one reason why I see therapy as beneficial.  Being able to talk to someone without being a burden would be awesome, because right now I don't really have anyone that I can talk to that I feel comfortable freely expressing myself, or at least not without causing these people major pain that I don't wish to inflict.  I feel like I've done all of this to myself and don't want to hurt anyone else while I'm at it.  Perhaps I should try another therapist, though I'm just rather concerned about it, especially since finances are tight.  I'd love to just get over this on my own and feel that I should *snap out of it*.  It's just a huge interference with life that I need to properly address.

 

Concerning religion: I thank you greatly for this reassuring piece, and this is something that I so greatly want to believe.  I was raised with strong religious beliefs and a fear of hell being eternal, easy to attain, and very, very abhorrent.  In considering other belief systems I've begun to fear that I'm doubting what I believed in and am sentencing myself to hell, but I don't know if this is only because of my current mental state, what I was raised with, or actually from God.  Still, what you say makes a lot of sense, and I wish that I could grasp this.

 

Finally, thank you for your response and your kind words of wisdom.  You might be entirely right about being unable to overcome something such as depression on one's own.  It's just a matter of wanting to, y'know?

 

All-in-all, thank you, everyone, and I apologize once again if I sound like I'm whining by creating this thread.  I sort of wrote it in a moment of despair and was trying to decide on whether to keep an appointment or not (which I ended up canceling).  Everything is all, eh, just a mess, and I'm sorry.

Whoa hey, I didn't mean to insult you or anything! I've just been having a busy day, so I didn't have time to really read through the whole thing. But I still figured you could use some advice anyway so I still tried my best to offer some. I'm sorry if it came off as insensitive. I understand that you're going through a lot. I have friends who have depression and I've got issues of my own that I'm not too comfortable coming forward with, but from the experience I've had it really helps to see someone when you have the chance and means to do it. That doesn't necessarily mean it's the only way to overcome it, there's probably lots of ways to overcome it independently. I don't exactly know everything about it, I just know from my experience that it really helped to see a specialist who understood what I was going through and gave me insight, suggestions, and tools to try in managing my own issues. Maybe something like that could help you, maybe it won't, my point is that if you have the means and the opportunity you should at least try. I think it's worth a shot. Like you said, it's just a matter of wanting to, right? I hope my suggestion helps.

Thank you, everyone, for all of your support, kind words, and overall optimism and encouragement.  It is so nice to know that there's such a supportive group on this end that has gone above and beyond to help me out.  All of this isn't over yet, but you have all greatly improved things.  So, thank you. : )  It really means a lot to me.

Mystics, I may not be able to fully relate to your situation, but to know that you're in pain worries me. You're a good friend, very kind, funny, supportive, helpful, and overall a wonderful person to be around. You're definitely not a burden or a bother for making this topic, don't ever let anyone make you feel otherwise! While I may not be able to relate fully, surely hiding or keeping these feelings you're having bottled up inside of you can't do much good. I say go for it, or at least find someone you are comfortable speaking about all this with. I know it may be easier said than done, but know that you have my support 100% of the way, and if you ever need anything at all I'm always a PM, e-mail, or chat message away. 

 

You're an amazing person Mystics, and you deserve to be happy. I wish you all the best right now, and always. 

Aww, Wakeless, thank you.  You're so sweet and supportive.  Thank you very much for your kind words, support, and overall amazing friendship over the years.  A PM is coming your way, 'kay? : )

 

Although I don't know much about you, or even talk to you, I hope you feel better.

Thank you kindly. : )  I have seen you around the forums, yes, but I don't think we've directly spoken much either.  Perhaps we can change that!

 

Taking this from someone who has gone through a whole lot of hell in their life, the one thing besides God that helped me was talking it out with a trusted friend. Venting helped me heal greatly and gave me a sounding board for my thoughts and feelings. There's nothing wrong with seeking therapy and I actually think it will help you in the long run. You need to learn to be yourself bc that's the only way to be! You need to realize what an awesome person you are and you don't need to be afraid of showing your true rad self! Remember you have to learn to love and be happy within yourself before you can love others and find happiness in general. You won't be able to get that from others no matter how much you think or hope you can. It all starts with you! You deserve happiness and peace within.

 

As for your struggles with God, I have my own personal testimony you can message me in private about. I think it's common to search for these deep answers that we hold close to our own identity and purpose. Especially if you were raised as such. But I have learned through my own personal experience what I spiritually believe in and it's not bc I also was raised that way. I have seen and experienced things that showed me without a shadow of a doubt that God was there and very real and no one could take that away from me. The bible says ask and you shall receive so maybe ask God to reveal himself to you? Seek and ye shall find! I know this subject is not easily discussed and there is no judgement here. Just understanding since I myself have struggled and fought my way through life. I am here for you anytime! Remember that!  If you do not want to seek professional help, at least try to talk and vent to a trusted friend. It's worked for me! Also, I can be that for you if you need me to be!

 

 

Your words ring with so much truth.  I really owe a MASSIVE thank-you to you, Lea, for everything you have done for me.  From the start of the move through yesterday your support has been massive, and I will never, ever forget what you're doing for me.  Thank you! A PM is heading your way.

 

Depression, even self diagnosed, is no laughing matter. If you're still mentally capable enough to have reached this conclusion and realize that you need professional help, then do it. All I ask from you is to do your due diligence and find the right therapist for you. There are different schools of psychology, and as such will have different methods of 'treatment.' Find the one that works for you specifically.

If you really want to avoid professional therapy, the only other option would be to find a coping mechanism. Turning to vices and drugs isn't the best option [its actually worse] so find something that won't hurt you. I'm just saying: there's a reason I have 4 Kairi plushies.

Just my two cents. I'm on my phone at the time I've typed this, so I'm not able to offer my fullest advice.

From the guy who almost pulled the trigger twice,
Javelin.

Typing on a phone is no fun at all, and I always have to render my messages short when I attempt this, so no worries there.  Thanks so much for your advice regardless; it was still incredibly useful.  That is very true on what you said regarding their being different schools of thought concerning psychotherapy, and perhaps I just have been lucky enough to going to a few people who don't know how to really help my case.  It's a strange thing: no one really admits that they need or want to go to therapy, y'know?  I too am fully against drugs or anything else to cope, so definitely no worries there!  I have also been much worse before in the past.  It's just I feel that I have much more at stake now if I leave this to go untreated than I had previously so I'm trying to take this more seriously.

 

Thank you, Javelin, and I truly wish you all the best. : )  I hope that you're doing okay yourself, and I'm very, very glad that you haven't done yourself harm.  You're needed in the world! : )

 

Whoa hey, I didn't mean to insult you or anything! I've just been having a busy day, so I didn't have time to really read through the whole thing. But I still figured you could use some advice anyway so I still tried my best to offer some. I'm sorry if it came off as insensitive. I understand that you're going through a lot. I have friends who have depression and I've got issues of my own that I'm not too comfortable coming forward with, but from the experience I've had it really helps to see someone when you have the chance and means to do it. That doesn't necessarily mean it's the only way to overcome it, there's probably lots of ways to overcome it independently. I don't exactly know everything about it, I just know from my experience that it really helped to see a specialist who understood what I was going through and gave me insight, suggestions, and tools to try in managing my own issues. Maybe something like that could help you, maybe it won't, my point is that if you have the means and the opportunity you should at least try. I think it's worth a shot. Like you said, it's just a matter of wanting to, right? I hope my suggestion helps.

Ahhhh, gotcha.  My apologies there.  I misunderstood your earlier message.  I thought you meant that you didn't want to bother reading it because you figured it was worthless and I just needed therapy, so my apologies again.  Thank you for your advice and words of wisdom, and also for understanding. : )  I hope that there are no hard feelings.

Thank you, everyone, for all of your support, kind words, and overall optimism and encouragement.  It is so nice to know that there's such a supportive group on this end that has gone above and beyond to help me out.  All of this isn't over yet, but you have all greatly improved things.  So, thank you. : )  It really means a lot to me.

Aww, Wakeless, thank you.  You're so sweet and supportive.  Thank you very much for your kind words, support, and overall amazing friendship over the years.  A PM is coming your way, 'kay? : )

 

Thank you kindly. : )  I have seen you around the forums, yes, but I don't think we've directly spoken much either.  Perhaps we can change that!

 

Your words ring with so much truth.  I really owe a MASSIVE thank-you to you, Lea, for everything you have done for me.  From the start of the move through yesterday your support has been massive, and I will never, ever forget what you're doing for me.  Thank you! A PM is heading your way.

 

Typing on a phone is no fun at all, and I always have to render my messages short when I attempt this, so no worries there.  Thanks so much for your advice regardless; it was still incredibly useful.  That is very true on what you said regarding their being different schools of thought concerning psychotherapy, and perhaps I just have been lucky enough to going to a few people who don't know how to really help my case.  It's a strange thing: no one really admits that they need or want to go to therapy, y'know?  I too am fully against drugs or anything else to cope, so definitely no worries there!  I have also been much worse before in the past.  It's just I feel that I have much more at stake now if I leave this to go untreated than I had previously so I'm trying to take this more seriously.

 

Thank you, Javelin, and I truly wish you all the best. : )  I hope that you're doing okay yourself, and I'm very, very glad that you haven't done yourself harm.  You're needed in the world! : )

 

Ahhhh, gotcha.  My apologies there.  I misunderstood your earlier message.  I thought you meant that you didn't want to bother reading it because you figured it was worthless and I just needed therapy, so my apologies again.  Thank you for your advice and words of wisdom, and also for understanding. : )  I hope that there are no hard feelings.

 

 

You are very welcome and remember what I told you! I'm here for you always!

Thank you, everyone, for all of your support, kind words, and overall optimism and encouragement.  It is so nice to know that there's such a supportive group on this end that has gone above and beyond to help me out.  All of this isn't over yet, but you have all greatly improved things.  So, thank you. : )  It really means a lot to me.

Aww, Wakeless, thank you.  You're so sweet and supportive.  Thank you very much for your kind words, support, and overall amazing friendship over the years.  A PM is coming your way, 'kay? : )

 

Thank you kindly. : )  I have seen you around the forums, yes, but I don't think we've directly spoken much either.  Perhaps we can change that!

 

Your words ring with so much truth.  I really owe a MASSIVE thank-you to you, Lea, for everything you have done for me.  From the start of the move through yesterday your support has been massive, and I will never, ever forget what you're doing for me.  Thank you! A PM is heading your way.

 

Typing on a phone is no fun at all, and I always have to render my messages short when I attempt this, so no worries there.  Thanks so much for your advice regardless; it was still incredibly useful.  That is very true on what you said regarding their being different schools of thought concerning psychotherapy, and perhaps I just have been lucky enough to going to a few people who don't know how to really help my case.  It's a strange thing: no one really admits that they need or want to go to therapy, y'know?  I too am fully against drugs or anything else to cope, so definitely no worries there!  I have also been much worse before in the past.  It's just I feel that I have much more at stake now if I leave this to go untreated than I had previously so I'm trying to take this more seriously.

 

Thank you, Javelin, and I truly wish you all the best. : )  I hope that you're doing okay yourself, and I'm very, very glad that you haven't done yourself harm.  You're needed in the world! : )

 

Ahhhh, gotcha.  My apologies there.  I misunderstood your earlier message.  I thought you meant that you didn't want to bother reading it because you figured it was worthless and I just needed therapy, so my apologies again.  Thank you for your advice and words of wisdom, and also for understanding. : )  I hope that there are no hard feelings.

No problem, I just hope that you find what you need and that I helped in a small way.