In other words, it's been one whole year.  Hello everyone, and good evening!  I hope that you're all doing okay!  Anyways, I bet you're all wondering what I'm talking about regarding why I'm mentioning it's been one year.  Well, here it is...

 

On this day, October the 29th of last year, my ex-girlfriend Kirie broke up a relationship she and I shared with each other for almost 3 and a half years.  It's funny...it still seems like just yesterday that this happened...and it hasn't hurt less ever since.  I know that she ended things with us for her reasons, and I respect them.  And for a while, we were okay, because we still kept talking to each other as friends. But, somewhere down the line...things happened, and well, now she rarely, and I do mean rarely, comes to this site!  You don't know how horribly I miss her...

 

Ever since the break up, I've done my best to move on.  After 7 months had passed, I had tried starting anew with Pandy Monium, (also a member of this site, but I'm sure you all knew that.)  But, I stupidly screwed things up there, and I ended things, therefore hurting Pandy deeply.  And well, let's just say I felt guilty about that very much.  But thankfully, Pandy and I were able to make up, and now we are good friends!  She, along with SuperiorKunivas and many other members of this site, have given me advice and have helped me through this whole situation along the way.  And I thank each and every one of you for always being there for me.  Nortanort, Sora-Lover, Yuya Sazaki, and all the other members out there.  I truly do appreciate you helping me through this!

 

It hasn't been easy going through this, and at many times, I find myself deeply depressed over all this, and sometimes I just wonder if this is all some horrible nightmare that's just messing up with my head.  But, the truth of the matter is that this is no nightmare.  It's reality. And sooner or later, I have to wake up and realize that I have to move on from this!  My best friends/soul brothers Jonathan and Dennys have also been there for me, and my best friend/soul sister Selina.  They've all been there for me when I've been at my lowest, and I deeply thank them for that as well!  My family has also been very supportive, and well, I thank God I have so many loved ones looking out for me...it just...really helps...

 

But anyways, two nights ago, Jonathan and I were talking about how things were going in terms of our love lives.  We've both hit rock bottom, and we've both been enduring pain for a long time now.  Things have been hard for the both of us, and well, Jonathan said: "We should move on, man.  We aren't bad people, and we don't deserve this suffering.  We have to try and start over!" At that, I thought upon his words, and well, I truly want to see if I can make things work with another woman, but I'm just scared of letting go of Kirie...I know that I'll always have her in my heart, but the fact that I'd be letting go completely...I just...don't know.

 

What I do know is that I need to stop torturing myself like this.  I need to stop moping around and laying in a pool of depression, and I need to move on and start over fresh!  Kirie has moved on, and wherever she is, I hope to God that she's happy, and that she has all the best of luck and blessings with whatever direction she decides to take her life in!  Heh, normally I'd say this to her, but she never shows up anymore...so it's just a whisper to the wind, I guess.  I just wish she'd come here so we could at least talk as friends.  But, things are what they are.  She's not the bad guy, and I'm not the traumatized victim!  It's much simpler than that.  

 

Life happened.

 

And like all things in life, I just have to gather the strength to move on...however hard that may be...but I need to break these chains of sadness keeping me held tight...I need to push forward, and at least try to look for someone else.  As long as I know that Kirie is happy and she's alive and doing well, that's enough for me...

 

Maybe it's time...that I took my own advice...

 

God, I got carried away.  Sorry I kept rambling on...just decided I wanted to vent my feelings out...

Yeah! Go on! You can do it! These events you suffer from are normal and happen to all of us. But I believe that you will find your spouse eventually. It takes time, yes, but it will happen. And your friend is right. You should get over it and start anew. And I said it once and I'm going to say it again. You can do it.

In other words, it's been one whole year.  Hello everyone, and good evening!  I hope that you're all doing okay!  Anyways, I bet you're all wondering what I'm talking about regarding why I'm mentioning it's been one year.  Well, here it is...

 

On this day, October the 29th of last year, my ex-girlfriend Kirie broke up a relationship she and I shared with each other for almost 3 and a half years.  It's funny...it still seems like just yesterday that this happened...and it hasn't hurt less ever since.  I know that she ended things with us for her reasons, and I respect them.  And for a while, we were okay, because we still kept talking to each other as friends. But, somewhere down the line...things happened, and well, now she rarely, and I do mean rarely, comes to this site!  You don't know how horribly I miss her...

 

Ever since the break up, I've done my best to move on.  After 7 months had passed, I had tried starting anew with Pandy Monium, (also a member of this site, but I'm sure you all knew that.)  But, I stupidly screwed things up there, and I ended things, therefore hurting Pandy deeply.  And well, let's just say I felt guilty about that very much.  But thankfully, Pandy and I were able to make up, and now we are good friends!  She, along with SuperiorKunivas and many other members of this site, have given me advice and have helped me through this whole situation along the way.  And I thank each and every one of you for always being there for me.  Nortanort, Sora-Lover, Yuya Sazaki, and all the other members out there.  I truly do appreciate you helping me through this!

 

It hasn't been easy going through this, and at many times, I find myself deeply depressed over all this, and sometimes I just wonder if this is all some horrible nightmare that's just messing up with my head.  But, the truth of the matter is that this is no nightmare.  It's reality. And sooner or later, I have to wake up and realize that I have to move on from this!  My best friends/soul brothers Jonathan and Dennys have also been there for me, and my best friend/soul sister Selina.  They've all been there for me when I've been at my lowest, and I deeply thank them for that as well!  My family has also been very supportive, and well, I thank God I have so many loved ones looking out for me...it just...really helps...

 

But anyways, two nights ago, Jonathan and I were talking about how things were going in terms of our love lives.  We've both hit rock bottom, and we've both been enduring pain for a long time now.  Things have been hard for the both of us, and well, Jonathan said: "We should move on, man.  We aren't bad people, and we don't deserve this suffering.  We have to try and start over!" At that, I thought upon his words, and well, I truly want to see if I can make things work with another woman, but I'm just scared of letting go of Kirie...I know that I'll always have her in my heart, but the fact that I'd be letting go completely...I just...don't know.

 

What I do know is that I need to stop torturing myself like this.  I need to stop moping around and laying in a pool of depression, and I need to move on and start over fresh!  Kirie has moved on, and wherever she is, I hope to God that she's happy, and that she has all the best of luck and blessings with whatever direction she decides to take her life in!  Heh, normally I'd say this to her, but she never shows up anymore...so it's just a whisper to the wind, I guess.  I just wish she'd come here so we could at least talk as friends.  But, things are what they are.  She's not the bad guy, and I'm not the traumatized victim!  It's much simpler than that.  

 

Life happened.

 

And like all things in life, I just have to gather the strength to move on...however hard that may be...but I need to break these chains of sadness keeping me held tight...I need to push forward, and at least try to look for someone else.  As long as I know that Kirie is happy and she's alive and doing well, that's enough for me...

 

Maybe it's time...that I took my own advice...

 

God, I got carried away.  Sorry I kept rambling on...just decided I wanted to vent my feelings out...

think of it this way, your problems could be so much worse, trust me

Sounds like you have the right idea. But having the idea of what you're supposed to do is a lot harder than actually following through. Following advice given to yourself can be far more difficult than following advice given by a loved one. Hope the best for you GF(or Shige, or TTK)

I'm not an expert at this sort of thing, but the only thing I can say is, well, embrace your dreams.

*reads Yuya Sazaki*

*eye twitches* It's Sakaki!!!!! Jokes

 

Awwwww I feel you there bro. I can't imagine what it'd be like I broke up with the one I love... well, you know, for good. Has it already been a year though?! Time is flying! Anyways, I can tell from this how strong your feelings are, and I can definitely relate to that. It's not that you can't move on, it's just that you don't want to because she's like a part of you. It would be like tearing off a limb. And I'm sure majority of everyone here would understand agree with me on that. You were like the most famous ship on here in my opinion. If I think of KH13 ships, I usually thought of you guys first. By the way I don't mean to bring back any memories, I'm just stating what I truly think.

 

I'm glad to have been there for you man, you're an awesome guy. Sometimes it is best to move on, especially when the other party has. It could hold you back for a long time if you don't. I think any girl would be really lucky to have you!

 

Peace!

We're all connected to each other by the chain called "fate"

 

All meetings and partings (unfortunately) are predestined to happen

But one thing is definitely certain, and that we are all destined to find happiness and that means you too

 

The important thing is to not lose sight of your light and hope.

And always remember, there is always light in the deepest of the darkness.

 

keep in mind that even though the pain and hurt you go through is certainly unpleasant, in time it will become the flames which temper your spirit and make you into a newer and stronger person for tomorrow.

Why do you carry this hurt for so long? Has it not eaten away at you? Unlike Sora in Re:coded, you remember that event and who she was, therefore, you have to get rid of the hurt. Holding on to hurt can create a hole and darkness fills it. I actually have seen it in high school with other people firsthand. Don't fall into that trap. I have broken up with a girlfriend I have had for a year and a half. It hurt when we split, but I realized there is much that I have and I can't let this ruin me or make a hole in my heart.

Edited October 30, 201510 yr by KingdomHearts3

If you love someone, let them go.  If they don't come back, then they were never yours.

Yeah! Go on! You can do it! These events you suffer from are normal and happen to all of us. But I believe that you will find your spouse eventually. It takes time, yes, but it will happen. And your friend is right. You should get over it and start anew. And I said it once and I'm going to say it again. You can do it.

Thank you very much for your kind words, Z, they mean a lot to me!  Yes, I know I can do it, I just have to be strong and push through, right?

 

think of it this way, your problems could be so much worse, trust me

Well, I'll take your word for it.  But it still hurts, ya know? But yeah, that's how things are. 

 

Sounds like you have the right idea. But having the idea of what you're supposed to do is a lot harder than actually following through. Following advice given to yourself can be far more difficult than following advice given by a loved one. Hope the best for you GF(or Shige, or TTK)

Yeah...following my own advice has proven quite difficult...letting go has been quite the process...and well, it's just a rough time and a rough spot to be in, ya know? But, hoping to God, I'll be able to recover from this completely, and I'll move on.  Thanks for wishing me the best, Emerald! (My favorite Rwby character, by the way!) And you can call me Key if you like!

 

I'm not an expert at this sort of thing, but the only thing I can say is, well, embrace your dreams.

Thanks man, I appreciate your words!  I shall definitely embrace my dreams and keep moving forward! ^_^

 

*reads Yuya Sazaki*

*eye twitches* It's Sakaki!!!!! Jokes

 

Awwwww I feel you there bro. I can't imagine what it'd be like I broke up with the one I love... well, you know, for good. Has it already been a year though?! Time is flying! Anyways, I can tell from this how strong your feelings are, and I can definitely relate to that. It's not that you can't move on, it's just that you don't want to because she's like a part of you. It would be like tearing off a limb. And I'm sure majority of everyone here would understand agree with me on that. You were like the most famous ship on here in my opinion. If I think of KH13 ships, I usually thought of you guys first. By the way I don't mean to bring back any memories, I'm just stating what I truly think.

 

I'm glad to have been there for you man, you're an awesome guy. Sometimes it is best to move on, especially when the other party has. It could hold you back for a long time if you don't. I think any girl would be really lucky to have you!

 

Peace!

Really? It's Sakaki? O.O  I always read it as Sazaki!  Huh. X3

 

Anyways, what you're saying is exactly right!  Kirie's been such an important part of my life, that it's been hard for me dealing with this loss, ya know? I'll always love her, that's for sure, but I need to take the next step and move on.  And yeah, the two of us were definitely a great couple, if I do say so myself! Ha, I remember everyone would talk about us! X3  It was good while it lasted!

 

Thanks for everything bro!  I'll try my best to keep marching on!

 

We're all connected to each other by the chain called "fate"

 

All meetings and partings (unfortunately) are predestined to happen

But one thing is definitely certain, and that we are all destined to find happiness and that means you too

 

The important thing is to not lose sight of your light and hope.

And always remember, there is always light in the deepest of the darkness.

 

keep in mind that even though the pain and hurt you go through is certainly unpleasant, in time it will become the flames which temper your spirit and make you into a newer and stronger person for tomorrow.

Wow...those were really poetic words!  I truly and deeply appreciate them, Catmaster!  Yes, I need to ensure that this experience I've been through makes me stronger as a person!  Things in life happen for a reason, and I know that I can still find happiness in this world!  I just have to be willing to find it! To hope for the best!

 

Why do you carry this hurt for so long? Has it not eaten away at you? Unlike Sora in Re:coded, you remember that event and who she was, therefore, you have to get rid of the hurt. Holding on to hurt can create a hole and darkness fills it. I actually have seen it in high school with other people firsthand. Don't fall into that trap. I have broken up with a girlfriend I have had for a year and a half. It hurt when we split, but I realized there is much that I have and I can't let this ruin me or make a hole in my heart.

Yeah...it's eaten away at me quite a bit...and you know, I never realized that I'm in a similar situation as Sora was until you mentioned it with this post!  Wow...it's really gotten me thinking.  Ah, so you've been through this too, then?  I see that you yourself have soldiered on and keep at it!  That's good for you!  And you are very right...I can't let this sadness and hurt make a hole in my heart...

 

If you love someone, let them go.  If they don't come back, then they were never yours.

That's quite the famous and old quote, but I think it fits this situation.  I have a lot to think about.  Thank you for your words, Joan, I appreciate them!

 

Thank you all for supporting me, I love you all from the bottom of my heart!  Truly, thank you so much for helping me through this!

If you love someone, let them go.  If they don't come back, then they were never yours.

 

I've heard this quote somewhere before.

I remember seeing this quote when I was going through a heartbreak a few years back

 

Wow...those were really poetic words!  I truly and deeply appreciate them, Catmaster!  Yes, I need to ensure that this experience I've been through makes me stronger as a person!  Things in life happen for a reason, and I know that I can still find happiness in this world!  I just have to be willing to find it! To hope for the best!

 

But its true though! There are times when we have to just let it go. Let go of all the emotional baggage. Let go of expecting people to turn around and change their mind after a break up. Let go of our sadness and anger. And from the pieces that were left from our shattered self, learn to piece together ourselves fragment by fragment and then use this experience as a lesson as a furnace to temper ourselves so that we'll learn to be a stronger person. And then from there learn to smile (which is actually harder than you think). But nonetheless, don't give up! Afterall the world is your stage, and it's people are your audience!

Wow. Usually you are happy and upbeat, Transcendent, but I've never seen you so sad. I am sorry for what happened with you too, even if it already happened and I didn't see it. :sad:

But its true though! There are times when we have to just let it go. Let go of all the emotional baggage. Let go of expecting people to turn around and change their mind after a break up. Let go of our sadness and anger. And from the pieces that were left from our shattered self, learn to piece together ourselves fragment by fragment and then use this experience as a lesson as a furnace to temper ourselves so that we'll learn to be a stronger person. And then from there learn to smile (which is actually harder than you think). But nonetheless, don't give up! Afterall the world is your stage, and it's people are your audience!

Yeah...I have to soldier on from this ordeal, and I have to believe that things will end up good for me, love life wise!  It's been difficult piecing myself back together from all this, but at least I've been trying!  I haven't let this whole situation take over my life, as I still do the things I love, like playing video games, watching movies/TV shows/anime, reading, etc.  But even though I'm doing well in all other aspects of my life, there's one part of my mind and my heart that always thinks and yearns for Kirie....*Sighs.* It just sucks sometimes.  But hopefully, I'll get over this.

 

Wow. Usually you are happy and upbeat, Transcendent, but I've never seen you so sad. I am sorry for what happened with you too, even if it already happened and I didn't see it. :sad:

Yeah, well, you know what they say: "Sometimes the happiest looking people tend to be the saddest."  Sometimes I feel like I'm just putting on a mask and pretending to be happy, but inside, I feel sadness come over me, ya know?  But when I really am happy, I sincerely show it, but when I stop and think and reflect on the whole break up, I get depressed.  I pretend to be happy so that I don't worry others, and well...that's how I've managed.  But at least now I'm feeling much better compared to a few months back.  Thanks for your concern, man, I appreciate it.

Edited November 1, 20159 yr by The Transcendent Key