Why do I even bother?

 

The reason why I, sometimes, post my depressive topics on Kh13.com it's because I have nowhere else to discuss or anyone to talk to!

 

I hate my life! I really hate it! What's the point of living a life if we can't achieve our goals or to find, at least, the smallest glimpse of happiness? I don't have "Best Friends", Girlfriend of parents that I can count with...

 

I'm not that bad at school. I only get low grades at Philosophy. The rest of the subject's I'm mediocre and I get really good marks in English, but they didn't care. I jsut got an 18/20 and they didn't care and, yet, they yell at me, make me study all the time. They have forbidden me for any electronic device such as the PC and PS3. If they want to watch TV, they kick me off... I can't even use them at weekends! Week-ends! How do they want me to concentrate in school if my mind's not in the place, if I'm bored and tired? They punish me for getting grades that are not even negative! I try, not my 100%, but I try. I find no pleasure in studying in any way...

 

They only care about themselves, they don't care about me. They no longer compliment me, gimme a hug or anything. They jsut despise me in any possible way. My dream is to be a Movie Director, a thing that'll never happen', never. It's actually impossible for someone like me to accomplish such thing. I have that silly idea stuck in my head justb ecause I have imagination and can edit.

About my dream again. I edit videos and write books. They despise it. When I want them to watch one of my lastest projects, they groan and ignore me.

 

They just want me to take good grades in order for them to look like the "good parents" they really are. And instead of supporting me, they are constantly giviging me threats and saying that once I turn 18 they'll kick me off if I'm not off to College.

 

Maybe I should just delete my Youtube channel, my projects and books... What bothers me the most is that NO ONE understands how important, even the shortest of video I make, matters to me. I mean, NO ONE! I have no support in real life, my comments sections  are empty and online friends are gone...

 

I just can't take it. Nowdays I'm always crying... I don't wanna live like this. I don't wanna live a lonely life.... I'm always thinking about suicide or running away, but waht for? I have nowhere to run to and I'm scared of death...

 

I'm no longer the person with dreams and hopes I was before. That Marco died, right now.

Edited May 9, 201411 yr by Marcomax

Step 1: Get a kitten.

Step 2: Pet the kitten until you feel better.

Repeat step 2 when necessary .

Edited May 9, 201411 yr by Squirting Demyx

Why do I even bother?

 

The reason why I, sometimes, post my depressive topics on Kh13.com it's because I have nowhere else to discuss or anyone to talk to!

 

I hate my life! I really hate it! What's the point of living a life if we can't achieve our goals or to find, at least, the smallest glimpse of happiness? I don't have "Best Friends", Girlfriend of parents that I can count with...

 

I'm not that bad at school. I only get low grades at Philosophy. The rest of the subject's I'm mediocre and I get really good marks in English, but they didn't care. I jsut got an 18/20 and they didn't care and, yet, they yell at me, make me study all the time. They have forbidden me for any electronic device such as the PC and PS3. If they want to watch TV, they kick me off... I can't even use them at weekends! Week-ends! How do they want me to concentrate in school if my mind's not in the place, if I'm bored and tired? They punish me for getting grades that are not even negative! I try, not my 100%, but I try. I find no pleasure in studying in any way...

 

They only care about themselves, they don't care about me. They no longer compliment me, gimme a hug or anything. They jsut despise me in any possible way. My dream is to be a Movie Director, a thing that'll never happen', never. It's actually impossible for someone like me to accomplish such thing. I have that silly idea stuck in my head justb ecause I have imagination and can edit.

About my dream again. I edit videos and write books. They despise it. When I want them to watch one of my lastest projects, they groan and ignore me.

 

They just want me to take good grades in order for them to look like the "good parents" they really are. And instead of supporting me, they are constantly giviging me threats and saying that once I turn 18 they'll kick me off if I'm not off to College.

 

Maybe I should just delete my Youtube channel, my projects and books... What bothers me the most is that NO ONE understands how important, even the shortest of video I make, matters to me. I mean, NO ONE! I have no support in real life, my comments sections  are empty and online friends are gone...

 

I just can't take it. Nowdays I'm always crying... I don't wanna live like this. I don't wanna live a lonely life.... I'm always thinking about suicide or running away, but waht for? I have nowhere to run to and I'm scared of death...

 

I'm no longer the person with dreams and hopes I was before. That Marco died, right now.

Whell, I cannot say I know everything of which you speak of, but I will say life is hard, and adversity will always be there. I know it is not good to not have anyone, but that is a chance in your life to find yourself. Be genuine and actually take the time to find out who you are, if you do not then no one will stay with you forever. Sometimes you do have to give up on some of your dreams and hopes to live, but I want you to try and find balance. I know what it is like to be going one path and not like it and trying to get somewhere else, but you can be amazed as to how they may intertwine and create happiness for you. just, as cliche as it is,

 

DON'T GIVE UP!

Channel your weaknesses and use them to your advantage to finding people with similar weaknesses and support each other.

Fool. Seems like you're still a kid. You're life hasn't even started yet. If you don't have a dream, that's no one's fault but yours. No matter what happens, you can have a dream, and you can work towards it.

Step 1: Get a kitten.

Step 2: Pet the kitten until you feel better.

Repeat step 2 when necessary .

I have allergies to cats...

Fool. Seems like you're still a kid. You're life hasn't even started yet. If you don't have a dream, that's no one's fault but yours. No matter what happens, you can have a dream, and you can work towards it.

I'm not a kid. I'm nearly reaching my 18's...

Don't give up. As long as you set your mind on positive things you will exceed in life. There will be up's and down's in everybody's life and we can't do anything about it. The only thing you can control is your yourself not other things like people.

Edited May 9, 201411 yr by Zeldablade7

Don't give up. As long as you set your mind on positive things you will exceed in life. There will be up's and down's in everybody's life and we can't do anything about it. The only thing you can control is your yourself not other things like people.

How can if I can't even rely to my OEWN PARENT?S

Are you really going to give up that easy? Because the reality is your situation is not as bad as you think it is(At least not based on your post). All those problems are temporary but ending your life is permanent. You can improve in school, you can talk to your parents, hell you can go on a dating site to find a gf. However you can't do any of those things if you're no longer here. It's easy to say "I give up" because there are roadblocks on the way to your goals. It takes real courage to look at those obstacles and tread down that path anyway. If you're not willing to fight for your dreams odds are that's all they'll ever be is just dreams. If you truly believe that you can become a film director and have the desire to see that goal a reality then fight for it. You take any obstacle in your path and knock it down while flipping off the naysayers on your way over them. It might not be easy but the things worth having are always worth fighting for. Remember life is a challenge only those who rise to that challenge no what it truly means to live.

How can if I can't even rely to my OEWN PARENT?S

I think you just have to your mindset about your parents. 

How can if I can't even rely to my OEWN PARENT?S

 

Then don't rely on your parents.

 

I hate to say it, but your parents are trash. Parents are supposed to be there for you, and support you to the ends of Earth. Seeing that your parents are not supporting you in anyway possible, makes me wonder why they even bother having children (I don't mean to offend you, but that's the reality of your parents).

 

Dammit man, Of course you can become a movie director or writer, you just need to keep an open mind. You got a dream you want to achieve? THEN FIGHT FOR THAT DREAM! Hurdle over every factoring obstacle you get in front of, go around the obstacle if you have to, but never go the opposite direction of path you paved. Doing that would mean losing. Are you a loser? NO, YOU ARE NOT. Dreamers are fighters after all. 

 

As MasterXemnas (fool) said, problems are temporary, suicide is permanent. You think about Suicide, you are losing. STOP THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE. It is not the only way out.

 

You got a college you need to go to? Get scholarships, take FAFSA, get financial aid. I don't care, just freaking do something that benefits you. You are gonna be eighteen this year right? Well guess what? Your parents are still gonna have to support you financially until you are 26 years old if they can't support you, then SUE THEM. Yes, you can sue your parents. I watched the local news and a girl who graduated recently sued her parents because they chose not to support her financially, and she freaking won. 

 

There are many solutions for your problems, you just gonna have to take the time to find them. DON'T FRICKING GIVE UP. GIVING UP IS NOT AN OPTION! SUICIDE IS A HUGE NO! God created you for a good reason. So find it, and keep fighting and fighting and WIN!

Two words: fight back. Fight with all your might.

 

You are not the only one facing a depressive life, my friend. I find myself at seperate views with my parents on my own future. Let's just say when the time comes for me to become completely independant on my life, well... that will never happen. What does it matter what your parents want? If they don't care, why should you? Don't give in to any harmful thoughts or feelings; fight back against any cruelty or abuse against you, no matter who it is.

I have allergies to cats...

I'm not a kid. I'm nearly reaching my 18's...

OK. New thing.

 

Step 1: Get a puppy.

Step 2: Pet the puppy until you feel better.

Repeat step 2 when necessary .

 

I'm not a kid. I'm nearly reaching my 18's...

Fool. Yeah, you're a kid.

I... I can't take this seriously while I'm looking at your signature.

I wish you the best of luck in this difficult time.

Why do I even bother? The reason why I, sometimes, post my depressive topics on Kh13.com it's because I have nowhere else to discuss or anyone to talk to! I hate my life! I really hate it! What's the point of living a life if we can't achieve our goals or to find, at least, the smallest glimpse of happiness? I don't have "Best Friends", Girlfriend of parents that I can count with... I'm not that bad at school. I only get low grades at Philosophy. The rest of the subject's I'm mediocre and I get really good marks in English, but they didn't care. I jsut got an 18/20 and they didn't care and, yet, they yell at me, make me study all the time. They have forbidden me for any electronic device such as the PC and PS3. If they want to watch TV, they kick me off... I can't even use them at weekends! Week-ends! How do they want me to concentrate in school if my mind's not in the place, if I'm bored and tired? They punish me for getting grades that are not even negative! I try, not my 100%, but I try. I find no pleasure in studying in any way... They only care about themselves, they don't care about me. They no longer compliment me, gimme a hug or anything. They jsut despise me in any possible way. My dream is to be a Movie Director, a thing that'll never happen', never. It's actually impossible for someone like me to accomplish such thing. I have that silly idea stuck in my head justb ecause I have imagination and can edit.About my dream again. I edit videos and write books. They despise it. When I want them to watch one of my lastest projects, they groan and ignore me. They just want me to take good grades in order for them to look like the "good parents" they really are. And instead of supporting me, they are constantly giviging me threats and saying that once I turn 18 they'll kick me off if I'm not off to College. Maybe I should just delete my Youtube channel, my projects and books... What bothers me the most is that NO ONE understands how important, even the shortest of video I make, matters to me. I mean, NO ONE! I have no support in real life, my comments sections  are empty and online friends are gone... I just can't take it. Nowdays I'm always crying... I don't wanna live like this. I don't wanna live a lonely life.... I'm always thinking about suicide or running away, but waht for? I have nowhere to run to and I'm scared of death... I'm no longer the person with dreams and hopes I was before. That Marco died, right now.

Depression is painful I know I go through it almost everyday but I found a new outlet in life and that's why I go for walks and listen to Music and I dance on my new show that I created. Look your still young and have a full life, you need to find something and change the way you live.

Depression is painful I know I go through it almost everyday but I found a new outlet in life and that's why I go for walks and listen to Music and I dance on my new show that I created. Look your still young and have a full life, you need to find something and change the way you live.

 

Music is the best solution. Listen to music. It takes your mind off of everything. It works for me tons of times when I listen to Linkin Park, Goo Goo Dolls, EDM, and other stuff. Buy some CD's or download some songs, put on headphones, get lost in the world of music.

 

Music is the best solution. Listen to music. It takes your mind off of everything. It works for me tons of times when I listen to Linkin Park, Goo Goo Dolls, EDM, and other stuff. Buy some CD's or download some songs, put on headphones, get lost in the world of music.

Thanks! I'm just speaking from personal experience I lost my dad when I was only 19 years old and honestly I went through so much and depression that I almost killed my self but then my brother held me and told me it's okay I'm here for you. Now me and my brother are best friends. I created my dance show back when my dad passed away to help my depression, this summer mix is just a new season I started a few weeks ago so look be positive you have members on here who care about you okay if you need someone to chat with I'm here ^_^

Edited May 10, 201411 yr by Kodakliv

Thanks! I'm just speaking from personal experience I lost my dad when I was only 19 years old and honestly I went through so much and depression that I almost killed my self but then my brother held me and told me it's okay I'm here for you. Now me and my brother are best friends. I created my dance show back when my dad passed away to help my depression, this summer mix is just a new season I started a few weeks ago.

Good to see you still optimistic.

Keep it up man.

Wow, that is really rough for you man.  But you can't let it get to you.  Never give up on your dreams, and always strive to be the best you can.  Don't give up on your dreams and work hard for them, for hard work and sacrifice are things that make us who we are.  It's not the dreams we have, but the way we go about accomplishing them that makes us who we are.  I say that you always keep on going, do your best in school, be creative with yourself with your writing and edits, and talk to people who share your same passions.  I have lots of friends who don't have good communication with their parents, so I want to let you know that you'll be okay.  You have to be strong, so that when you can accomplish your dreams, you can prove everyone wrong.  By then, you'll be the person you want to be, and not what people expect you to be.  Be strong bro.

Fun fact: even if you don't achieve what you set out to do, there's a good chance the effort you throw in--if you take the time to throw it--can open up avenues you haven't considered.  If you think you can't achieve your goals, broaden your horizons.

 

If it seems like the people in your immediate vicinity don't share your passions, find people who do.  If you can't do it in the physical world, then at least do it on the internet.  As much as it seems like you're a unique and special snowflake whose dreams and passions are shared by no one else, you really aren't.  The world's too big for that, and the internet is a powerful tool to connect with those people.

 

Hard and tempting as it is, it's just plain too early to call it quits.  And frankly, being a movie director isn't something I expect an eighteen-year-old to do. I know how frustrating it is to see your efforts not producing anything.  Take smaller steps instead.  Find a movie-making community (online).  And the best part?  You're not obligated to tell your parents about everything you do.  If they're as closed-minded as you say they are, chances are letting them on in your personal life doesn't seem to be helping your situation.  If you can get away with it, just do it by yourself.  At the very least you get to say you took some initiative without their guidance/nagging.

You know, they say that the ones that suffer early on life are the most happy ones in the auge of their life. Just keep thinking about what tomorrow will bring to you. Go after your dreams, and after that show to your parents how great you have become. You don't need to be famous or rich, just show them that you got a happy and fulfilled life. 

 

And every time you feel like you need you can talk with me (: There is no need for you to be alone.