Hello kh13 dwellers. Given that the my winter holidays are now officially ending, I'd like to reflect upon my thoughts of the last 3 weeks (last few days mostly).
Alrighty, given that it was holidays, I've had heaps of time to myself and haven't really had to bother with the events of my own life. But I've been watching videos about one direction, iCarly actors, and other teen celebrities and just basically thinking, wow my life sucks compared to theirs. I'm not saying my life is bad, it's not, but I just get this yearning like I wish I could do something like that.
It's a similar feeling to when a show I really enjoy watching comes to an end, and I know it's all over and it's kind of like a part of my life has gone. A semi-churning/butterflies feeling in my stomach. I think it's got a lot to do with emotional attachment, because I get really attached to things I enjoy. When I finish reading a book about people going on some great adventure, I think why can't my world be like that. Why can't I have some miracle happen to me which leads me on to wonderful and fantastic things. I want to go on some sort of a journey with a friend, and fall in love with a girl along the way. You know what I mean, almost like a fairy tale.
What makes the feeling worse, especially towards the stardom thing, is that I genuinely feel like I have something to offer. Oh and btw, in case you're wondering, my "genuine offer" is not singing, I can't sing well to save myself haha. I guess it's kind of like I'm still waiting for my big break.
I see an actor in a movie or TV show and think, I'm just like that character, or I'd be great at that. I just really feel like I'm missing out on something. I feel like I really connect with the characters, their ideals.
I don't want to sound like some hopeless wannabe though. I think what I'm really asking for is recognition. In my life I feel like I do so much for people, sometimes stuff they don't even realise; and I want to be recognised for my efforts, for being a good genuine person. I see people write on facebook; wah wah this happened to me, or, I wish someone would do this. . , and all I can think is, for God's sake I'm right here, I've always been here and as far as I know, always will be.
Anyway, now that school is starting again I'm going to get back into my normal life routine and forget about all this stuff. Am I crazy, or is this understandable? I'm starting to seriously think I may have some issues in my mentality.
Hello kh13 dwellers. Given that the my winter holidays are now officially ending, I'd like to reflect upon my thoughts of the last 3 weeks (last few days mostly).
Alrighty, given that it was holidays, I've had heaps of time to myself and haven't really had to bother with the events of my own life. But I've been watching videos about one direction, iCarly actors, and other teen celebrities and just basically thinking, wow my life sucks compared to theirs. I'm not saying my life is bad, it's not, but I just get this yearning like I wish I could do something like that.
It's a similar feeling to when a show I really enjoy watching comes to an end, and I know it's all over and it's kind of like a part of my life has gone. A semi-churning/butterflies feeling in my stomach. I think it's got a lot to do with emotional attachment, because I get really attached to things I enjoy. When I finish reading a book about people going on some great adventure, I think why can't my world be like that. Why can't I have some miracle happen to me which leads me on to wonderful and fantastic things. I want to go on some sort of a journey with a friend, and fall in love with a girl along the way. You know what I mean, almost like a fairy tale.
What makes the feeling worse, especially towards the stardom thing, is that I genuinely feel like I have something to offer. Oh and btw, in case you're wondering, my "genuine offer" is not singing, I can't sing well to save myself haha. I guess it's kind of like I'm still waiting for my big break.
I see an actor in a movie or TV show and think, I'm just like that character, or I'd be great at that. I just really feel like I'm missing out on something. I feel like I really connect with the characters, their ideals.
I don't want to sound like some hopeless wannabe though. I think what I'm really asking for is recognition. In my life I feel like I do so much for people, sometimes stuff they don't even realise; and I want to be recognised for my efforts, for being a good genuine person. I see people write on facebook; wah wah this happened to me, or, I wish someone would do this. . , and all I can think is, for God's sake I'm right here, I've always been here and as far as I know, always will be.
Anyway, now that school is starting again I'm going to get back into my normal life routine and forget about all this stuff. Am I crazy, or is this understandable? I'm starting to seriously think I may have some issues in my mentality.
Thanks for you time, ladies and gents.