I can't take this life anymore. I about killed myself tonight. I just can't take the people in my life anymore and the way that I am treated. There are only two people that I actually know who really care for me, while everyone else just don't give a d*** about me. I know you all will say that you care for me, but you can't really care for me since you don't know me. I am just an outcast who is treated like a monster and who isn't truly cared for or love except by two people. I don't know what to do anymore, I just can't take this life anymore. If it wasn't for my aunt, I would have killed myself tonight, and who's to say that the next time I won't actually do it. I need help!

You should seek counseling and support from somebody you trust

My personal advice as for overcoming the feeling of wanting to kill yourself is to completely let go of the past and stop caring. Just move on and start fresh, then find something that you love and just stick with it, look to that for hope or whatever you want to call it.

Well dude, just think about this for a second, and remember that life is a precious gift, and one that shouldn't be wasted.  Things happen to all of us in life, and sometimes we don't know why it has to happen, but it just does.  What you have to do is remain strong and confident in yourself, and take into consideration that you have to value yourself as a person, and that you are just beginning to experience life.  There are many people that have gone through your situation or worse, and they have been able to overcome their despairs.  If you want professional help, go to a psychiatrist.  If you want personal help, search for those two who care the most about you. Honestly, and with all due respect, killing yourself would be a foolish and stupid decision, and it's a good thing your aunt stopped you.  Maybe it'll give you some time to stop and think about how to evaluate your life.  I know that I don't know you enough to justify this post, but from what I've seen your a pretty swell guy, and I wouldn't like one of my friends to end up dying, so do me a favor and stay alive, you hear me? *bro hugs.* Hope this helped.

Edited February 20, 201411 yr by Golden Fighter

not another one of these. Look. go to an adult you trust and like.

talk about it.

 explain some things to them.

Fix the problem.

Killing yourself is just running away, and that isn't manly or attractive on anyone.

Calm down and think about what you can do.

 

 

also feel free to PM me anytime if you need to talk.

just not today as im super busy and am only on for a quick break from said busy things.

I used to be suicidal too man, so when I say this I'm serious. You should try counseling and therapy it helped me ALOT

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem . It's not worth killing yourself over something that WILL pass . That said, make an effort to make improvements in yourself and don't worry what others think . Seek help. If everyone killed themselves bc of every obstacle that life brings we would be extinct by now . It WILL pass trust me .

I can't take this life anymore. I about killed myself tonight. I just can't take the people in my life anymore and the way that I am treated. There are only two people that I actually know who really care for me, while everyone else just don't give a d*** about me. I know you all will say that you care for me, but you can't really care for me since you don't know me. I am just an outcast who is treated like a monster and who isn't truly cared for or love except by two people. I don't know what to do anymore, I just can't take this life anymore. If it wasn't for my aunt, I would have killed myself tonight, and who's to say that the next time I won't actually do it. I need help!

How can you say such a self-fish thing? people care about you more than you know. You know what? I used to feel the same way. But you know what i did? I sucked it up and continued life. and you know what? it got better! I was able to realize that even the person that i barely knew at starbucks that makes my coffee every other morning cared about me. Every person you talk to or somehow touch with you life will care for you in some way. Dont ever say that no one cares because you are more wrong than you realize. If all else fails Gods loves you. Please don't be that other person to add to my list of people i have talked to and have ended themselves. I cant take another.

please

I have been down that road. It is not you, it is this bloody freaking society we live in. People cannot seem to live anymore without hurting someone or lying about who they are and what they stand for just to get a cut rate job, or a big job. The society is driven on money and lies and not on living and community. 

 

Just stop and think, build yourself up to getting to a place where you can truly live.

 

Plus, why do you think I am needless, if you do not want to conform you will be thrown aside, but if you cannot handle the pressure of being an outcast then fight for what is right with others by your side.

 

Do not ever say there is no one who gives a damn about you, or gives two shits if you live or not. I care about every thing on this entire planet and all existence, you are no exception. So note if you die I will know I am not doing something right.

Edited February 20, 201411 yr by ReikuSSR

I'm gonna recommend you ignore everyone telling you it's selfish and to suck it up. I have been suicidal in the past, so I do understand where you're coming from. I know it seems like there's no way you could ever be happy and there's no way it could ever get better, but you're gonna be completely stunned when you make it through this. You won't feel like this forever, and life takes some crazy turns, so you might be okay again sooner than you think. As recent as 7 or 8 months ago I was considering taking my own life, but now I'm happier than I've ever been. I know it's hard to believe that you'll be happy and loved from where you're at right now, but trust me, you will. And to have thought this is not selfish--don't let anyone guilt-trip you into thinking that. Suicide is an act of desperation when someone's in terrible emotional distress. It would be a terrible, terrible thing if the world lost you, because to someone someday you're going to make an impact if you haven't already. You'll be happy and valuable and I promise you that, money-back guarantee. But don't let the guilt-tripping get to you--you're depressed and that's okay and you can move on from feeling like this. I'd recommend asking your family to get you counseling, and talking to them or someone else you trust about how you feel more often. You could also try making some positive changes in your life (ex. complimenting one person a day, going ice skating just for the heck out it, etc.) It might not get better immediately, but it's worth it to keep going. 

I'm gonna recommend you ignore everyone telling you it's selfish and to suck it up. I have been suicidal in the past, so I do understand where you're coming from. I know it seems like there's no way you could ever be happy and there's no way it could ever get better, but you're gonna be completely stunned when you make it through this. You won't feel like this forever, and life takes some crazy turns, so you might be okay again sooner than you think. As recent as 7 or 8 months ago I was considering taking my own life, but now I'm happier than I've ever been. I know it's hard to believe that you'll be happy and loved from where you're at right now, but trust me, you will. And to have thought this is not selfish--don't let anyone guilt-trip you into thinking that. Suicide is an act of desperation when someone's in terrible emotional distress. It would be a terrible, terrible thing if the world lost you, because to someone someday you're going to make an impact if you haven't already. You'll be happy and valuable and I promise you that, money-back guarantee. But don't let the guilt-tripping get to you--you're depressed and that's okay and you can move on from feeling like this. I'd recommend asking your family to get you counseling, and talking to them or someone else you trust about how you feel more often. You could also try making some positive changes in your life (ex. complimenting one person a day, going ice skating just for the heck out it, etc.) It might not get better immediately, but it's worth it to keep going.

Think Pink, thank you. I really needed to hear something like this.

i dont know you but please dont listen to any of the mean things said in this thread. ive been in your place before and i know that being told to "suck it up and just deal with it" helps no one.

 

please tell someone that you feel this way, your aunt or someone else who can help you. i cant say i know your exact situation but i have severe depression and was suicidal for a long time so i know where you're coming from. talking to people about it has really helped, and, even if you dont think therapy or medication will do anything, i really suggest that you give it a try. you are an important person and you dont deserve to feel this way.

 

if you ever need someone to talk to about this, please dont hesitate to talk to me, if you feel comfortable with that.

I wish you the best of luck in this difficult time.

I know how that feels. Trust me. That's coming from someone who attempted suicide about a year ago. It was the exact same thing. I felt like no one cared about me, that I was a burden on everyone around me, and that just by living, I was making everyone around me miserable. I thought that by just ending it, I'd be making the world a better place. Hell, I still feel like this a lot. But what happened after that attempt? I talked to some of my friends about it, including Think Pink. And when I did that, and everyone was telling me not to do it, I felt like a burden again, but I also felt something else. For the first time in a long time, I felt like people actually cared about me. I had honestly forgotten how that felt. That's all I can say to you: as hard as it may be, talk to people about how you feel about yourself. It won't make all the things you're feeling go away, sadly. But it'll help to remind you that no matter what your mind tells you, there are people that care about you, and you're more important than you realize. Talk to people, and work on getting help for yourself.

 

And don't listen to anyone who tells you that you're selfish for thinking like this, because that's not true. 

Damn dude, suicide ain't the way to go, esp. since you only lived what? 1/8 of your life? If you need some professional help, get help. Don't worry about what other people think, think for you and your close ones, like those two you are talking about. Heck, have you even thought about the consequences? The two people that care the most about you will suffer if you did suicide. They would think nearly the same as you and just be depressed and ship like that. I nearly thought this way long time ago. How I got rid of the feeling? Music, and having a goal to look forward to. Find a goal to achieve, and stay focused on that goal, heck add more goals, (not too much, don't want your head to explode).

 

As Lea said, problem is temporary, it'll pass. Suicide WILL cause MORE PROBLEMS. And you will find people out there that care for you, just gotta keep your head up!

Look, in life, people are mean, cruel, evil, and there isn't anything we can do about it because that's just how they are. Even if we wish we could change it, wishin' never did nothing, doing dose something. I can tell you, I've experienced some of the worst humanity can offer, and the best. The best ain't too good a best, but it's all there is, and it's better than if there isn't any. If ya let things just bother you and let people hurt you, of course things ain't even got a shot of improving, even if it exhausts you, makes you hurt, makes things feel hopeless. As a middle schooler, I was often bullied for no reason at all, ridicules for my short height and extremely wide build, my clothing, hell, even my hairline was ridiculed because it looked like a "M". I was born in what's called over here "Northtown". Specifically, Old Northtown, the ghetto part of town, ghetto-est part there is, that's where I was born and raised for most of my life so far. I've seen people shot, stabbed, killed, I've seen things a kid should never see at that age, and even had been on the end of it as well, and I was eleven when that happened. I dealt with that crap on a daily basis, because that's what I grew up around, but I saw it as evil and fought it best I could. What I did about it was just fight it any way I could. Learn to take the punishment then dish it out in twice the amount, that's all we can do. The moment we give up and kill ourselves is the moment they win. The moment we let evil swallow us up, consume us, and take us from it. I'm sure you don't want the evil to win the world, unless you yourself want evil to flourish? The best way to fight evil itself is to help make a better world by bringing better people into it, either by raising them up yourself or changing them for the better, but you can't do that if you give up.

 

I get the feeling; behind my stupid grin and seemingly-cheery personalty, I've been depressed since I was ten for absolutely no reason, I've wanted to die several times due to life not looking too bright, but I also knew the moment I did I let evil win. I'm not saying suck it up. Trust me, sucking it up can't help you. You just feel bitter and angry all the time. What I say you should do is look at this as the evil you must fight, and fight it, never let it win, because I'm pretty sure you don't just allow evil to kill you? I'm pretty sure you want to return to a sense of normalcy in life, right!? If so, your best shot is to fight, never give in, and face that adversity best you can. I know I must sound like some sort of idiot babbling, I know I'm probably going to get responses telling me I'm wrong/that my supposed childhood events never happened/that I don't know all I know, This is how I feel, this is me trying to share my view on it to help ya. I'm not the best at words/explaining things, but I did my best to try and help.

 

-Ryan

I use to feel the same and I sometimes still do. It sucks. But it really isn't worth it and if you can work your way past that feeling you'll one day look back on yourself and wonder how you could've ever even felt that way. You're going to think you were stupid. Life moves on and it does get better. Especially for those who work at it. So you have two people that care about you. Remember that there ARE people with less than that. People who are homeless, sold into human trafficking, who's there to care about them? I'm not saying you don't have a right to feel the way you do. Most of us cant help it when we feel this way. But you can work toward getting through it by remembering that you're young and you do at least have people who care. Just keep moving on and the rest will come. If it helps, this song is one that helped me over a year ago when I was depressed.

 

Is this because you put salt on the chicken?

I have my own share of suicidal problems 3 years ago, but I can see you're well taken cared off here. Feels good to know that you have people here to care for you right? Cherish them and that's already a good reason enough to live. It's ok to share your problems. No one is gonna hate you for that and it's nothing to be embarrassed about. Take care alright. Remember. You have a place here. You creating this thread is already a good progress for you.

I know that this sub-forum is called Real Life & Personal , but isn't this much ? I mean ,posting your personal problems on a site that consists of total strangers , is not good .

Edited February 20, 201411 yr by Nick Sideris

I know that this sub-forum is called Real Life & Personal , but isn't this much ? I mean ,posting your personal problems on a site that consists of total strangers , is not good .

 

I see.

I see.

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Xeevmon, 

In life, everyone faces times of hardship, fear, doubt, and worry. In this life, we will encounter times like these. It's all about how you handle it. Suicide is certainly not the way. It is the cowards way out. The main reason individuals commit suicide is because they feel lost, alone, isolated. Like- there is no meaning to go on. But let me tell you this: God has a plan for you. He has a plan for everyone. You do have purpose, we all have purpose. It may feel like no one cares for you, or your alone but God cares for you, your family and friends care for you. You have meaning, you have purpose. Worldly troubles will always pass and go. Life is a one time gig. Don't waste it. 

There will always be opportunities to change, you must seek them out, and grab them. True happiness doesn't come from money, and success but through God. I truly wish you luck on your journey, and will pray for you. 

 

-Aang

Xeevmon, In life, everyone faces times of hardship, fear, doubt, and worry. In this life, we will encounter times like these. It's all about how you handle it. Suicide is certainly not the way. It is the cowards way out. The main reason individuals commit suicide is because they feel lost, alone, isolated. Like- there is no meaning to go on. But let me tell you this: God has a plan for you. He has a plan for everyone. You do have purpose, we all have purpose. It may feel like no one cares for you, or your alone but God cares for you, your family and friends care for you. You have meaning, you have purpose. Worldly troubles will always pass and go. Life is a one time gig. Don't waste it. There will always be opportunities to change, you must seek them out, and grab them. True happiness doesn't come from money, and success but through God. I truly wish you luck on your journey, and will pray for you.  -Aang

That's where you are wrong, there are only two people in my family who truly cares for me

That's where you are wrong, there are only two people in my family who truly cares for me

Xeveemon, I cannot judge who cares for you, and who doesn't. But I can say that there are people who love, and care for you. I will continue to pray over you. And I wish to help you. I will intervene no longer. But if you want someone to speak to, I will gladly help you.

 

-Aang

I just can't take the people in my life anymore and the way that I am treated.

 

Soooo... Find better company? Honestly dude, it sounds to me like you are doing way too much to seek the approval of other people. You don't even care about yourself, so why should anyone else? 

It's the same reason why the "Mr.Nice Guy" gets rejected by the girl he likes - he becomes so interested in her and constantly doing insecure stuff seeking her approval that eventually she just goes "Eh" and walks away. 

What you should be doing is loving yourself and your own life because that's how you meet people who are out there doing the same thing and those are the people you want to spend time and energy on, those will be your real friends in life. Making friends and meeting people who care about you is effortless if you already care about yourself. That's why it is so important you just live and enjoy life, go out and do stuff and you will find people just walk into it who care. If you are doing something you enjoy and meet someone whilst doing it, how is it possible for you not to like each other at least a bit? And then you build friendships from there. 

 

Like Fall Out Boy said "You are what you love, not who loves you"