Hi I'm Kinode.

And hi I'm Felipe.

Two different people, yet the same one.

We're nothing like each other though.

-Kinode is a fairly cool guy full of friends around him to support him, people to talk to, people who are just like him.

-Nothing can ever break him down. Honestly there's no harm possible to Kinode.

-He has problems but everyone understands them and accepts him.

-He's someone who's evolved a lot.

-Kinode is happy.

 

And them there's Felipe.

-Felipe is the weird guy with very few friends, no one to talk to, no one like him.

-He can be broken down by anything. Everyone is better than him, no one wants to talk to him unless it's probably to make fun of him.

-He is full of problems no one is aware of, but he can't talk about them to anyone, because no one would accept him and understand what he's going through. He'd like to just get rid of those problems but they'd only bring worse ones.

-He tries not to get involved much in anything.

-Felipe is somewhat sad.

 

As you can see, I have two lives, one in which I'm happy, one in which I'm somewhat sad. Definitely not happy.

As long as I have one happy life, though, I'm ok with it. But then in the other, I get shit from everyone telling me to lay my happy life down and get happier on the one I'm somewhat sad on.

However, there is no way it can get better, really. Not unless I take the risk of it only getting worse.

Let me tell you guys a bit more about Felipe.

-He has this Good luck charm. It's an amethyst, and it helps bring confidence and luck to him. Doesn't aways work.

-He has a pretty busy week.And it'll only get busier through the year.

-He's almost old enough to get a part time job as an apprentice, which he plans on getting.

-He writes a diary, which he spends most of his time writing on, mostly during classes since he doesn't have much time in the afternoon.

-He has his own theory/religion that is still being "thought on".

-He's never had a successful relationship.

 

So I guess that's most of what you guys need to know about the "real me".

In a way, I should be thankful for what I have on my real life. I have a lot of stuff and enough to have a successful future as a person, but my social life sucks almost too much.

I have 3 big problems I m facing right now:

-Struggling with my "forbidden love" however cliché that sounds.

-Struggling with my social life.

-Struggling to not let these two lives interact in anyway.

 

Let's talk about that last one.

You can see my two lives are pretty firetrucking different. There's no way to picture them merged as one, right?

Er, yeah. This is where the problem pops up.

In my real life, I have a "friend". This "friend", somehow got ito the "Kingdom Hearts series", which he is a complete NOOB on but thinks he knows everything about.

This friend, upon browsing about the franchise, found THIS SITE. Which I happened to mention, and then revealed my second name, Kinode. Kinode is my second name in almost everywhere on the Internet, so I said it on another subject, and he RECOGNIZED me in his site.

From what I know of he doesn't have an account although he's mentioned wanting to create one.

And I KNOW he looks at the forums and I've proven he already stalked me for he's mentioned reading about him in my profile page several times. If you go on my "about me", you'll know what I mean.

now let's just say, this guy is a firetrucking HOMOPHOBE. And he refuses to say that word, but he's very firetrucking disrespectful against homosexuality. You know where this is going, right?

I'm... very intimate with you guys. I can trust all of you. In that school, though, my 'friends' are the ones that betrayed me and screwed me over the most, in fact, I think the only people who have screwed me over ARE my friends. then, another friend of his starting getting into Kingdom Hearts as well. This one, who used to be my friend AGEESSSSS ago but I kinda hate him now, really. No different from him, he's also a homophobe, and probably more of one.

He's mentioned KH13 before. He has also stated he's "seen the thread", but saying he was joking, then saying he was serious, then saying he was joking again so I'm pretty confused.

I'm not going to stop being intimate with you guys. You're the only ones i can trust. But I'm not sure what to do about these two.

they claim to not spy on me, and I've asked them not to come on the site but of course they're going to be stubborn and probably be even more eager to find stuff to use against me.

Someone PLEASE help me. I'm not sure at all what todo about this. I've considered a username change so they won't recognize me but I don't wanna let 'Kinode' go...

._.

Have a conversation with them? Kill them? Yes kill them. Also whatever they do, online or offline, ignore them.They are just idiots. Go tell them to get a GF or something. No need to change because of some jerks. I DON'T WANT KINODE TO GO AWAY! (>T_T)>

Edited March 10, 201213 yr by Golden Ultima

Tell the mods to use banhammer? I DON'T WANT KINODE TO GO AWAY! (>T_T)>

 

they don't need to have an account to stalk me though.

they don't need to have an account to stalk me though.

 

Shush, I edited that

I'm sorry D: That's so much to deal with. First, I hope to God that things get better for you soon. Secondly, if you're afraid to post something, why don't you IM one of us? We're all there for you<3 skljskldfjd I don't like these, people D< But you can't really stop someone from coming online unless you smash their computer or something. For now I guess act like what they say doesn't bother you, and just tell us through IM/PM. We've got your back, hon, and if they say anything about you on here, we'll be right there to tell them they're wrong.

A username change really isn't going to help. If you take down your old account, then he'll know something was up and it would take a while for you to take down all posts that you made that say about your sexuality. So, neither thing is going to help much although you might wanna try the latter.

I know I've been in the exact same situation but thankfully the people who were checking my account never found anything that told them about my sexuality, except for some things which I passed off as some of my friends online could hack my account. They bought it thankfully. Maybe you could try the same thing if it ever comes up. I'm sorry Kinode. This is a pretty difficult situation and there's not a lot of ways to go around it.

Felipe Love yourself and never change who you are for anyone.In order to merge your two "selves" you have to learn to not care what people think about you and love YOU..You can truly never love another person until you learn to love yourself.I know it must be hard to be gay in this world and for that i feel for you.But my prime concern is for your personal happiness.This can only happen when you love yourself and arent afraid to show it ..to anyone and everyone.Hugsss

Strike down the ignorant. Physically or metaphorically, it's your choice.

 

I'm not too different from Felipe myself, and I never let anyone outside of my own mind get in. I mostly used outlets, whether they be physical (like working out) or mental (meditation and such). But no matter which way you choose to go, you have to remember one thing: this "friend" holds no power over you, nor your life. His beliefs are his own and, like any other beliefs, can be shrugged away by any who have the will to do so. Felipe and Kinode may be two different sides, but they're the same coin in the end. And whether Felipe realizes it or not (cheesy moment in 3...2...1...), Kinode is always lying in wait behind, supporting him. One needs only to reach out for help, and there will always be a hand to lift them. even if that hand comes from oneself.

 

 

Ugh, my head hurts. That's why I don't get all deep...

 

Strike down the ignorant. Physically or metaphorically, it's your choice.

 

I'm not too different from Felipe myself, and I never let anyone outside of my own mind get in. I mostly used outlets, whether they be physical (like working out) or mental (meditation and such). But no matter which way you choose to go, you have to remember one thing: this "friend" holds no power over you, nor your life. His beliefs are his own and, like any other beliefs, can be shrugged away by any who have the will to do so. Felipe and Kinode may be two different sides, but they're the same coin in the end. And whether Felipe realizes it or not (cheesy moment in 3...2...1...), Kinode is always lying in wait behind, supporting him. One needs only to reach out for help, and there will always be a hand to lift them. even if that hand comes from oneself.

 

 

Ugh, my head hurts. That's why I don't get all deep...

 

 

Cheesiness is as truthful as things get though

Homophobes should literally just get over themselves and their firetrucking fears and leave the LGBT community alone . Nuff . firetrucking . Said Sorry to hear about this Kinode

I want you to know Kinode, that I consider you one of my best friends on KH13. (I don't know if you feel the same way so that's awkward.) I will always support and care for you, even if I'm like, eofhaofjakfjworhskf I don't know what to say. To be honest, I'm glad you tell us about your personal problems. It's probably why I like you so much. But I don't think a name change will do anything. Unless you change your About Me page and your signature blue text (which is pretty identifiable by now.) I think personally you should still stand by your honest opinion and what you believe in. I don't know what social consequences you might experience but maybe your "friends" need to accept that this who you are, how you think and they shouldn't try and change you.

I want you to know Kinode, that I consider you one of my best friends on KH13. (I don't know if you feel the same way so that's awkward.) I will always support and care for you, even if I'm like, eofhaofjakfjworhskf I don't know what to say. To be honest, I'm glad you tell us about your personal problems. It's probably why I like you do much. But I don't think a name change will do anything. Unless you change your About Me page and your signature blue text (which is pretty identifiable by now.) I think personally you should still stand by your honest opinion and what you believe in. I don't know what social consequences you might experience but maybe your "friends" need to accept that this who you are, how you think and they shouldn't try and change you.

 

Only one person in my whole school other than me probably understands Homosexuality, he's probably my only true friend right now and if I were to come out to anyone it'd be him first.

You're one of my best friends in this site too ^.^

Well yeah, along with my username I'd try to change everything i can. But I'll try to avid that alternative.

I dont want you to leave "Kinode" at all, your one of my best friends who made me happy on this site, or even in reality. I have been through almost the same thing, being happy life on the internet but having a sad life in reality. Dont leave your true self, your one of the people that make me happy and can relate too in many ways. I have people calling me a lesbian for some strange reasons and they hate them. I even have a friend who is a homosexual and he goes through the same with you. Another one who is a bisexual and people make fun of her the way she acts. And guess what? They dont care. Even if it hurts, they know who they are and they love that about them selves. I dont think you should change your username, you should not change your self. Your who you are and no matter what you should not run from it. If it bothers you that much, change your about me and your blue text. Possibly your avatar and signature as well. But like I said, dont change at all. People love you by who you are, not what you pretending to be. No matter what stay strong. All these people who are total jerks and homophobes are going to have rough life ahead of them. Over 50 people made my life miserable in Elementary and now in Middle School, people started to ignore and hate them. I love you too much, dont change at all, and if you want to tell your problems to us, then tell us privately. (>T_T)> let me give you a hug.

 

Also even if your a homosexual, your still you. If they make fun of you on that, then dont even talk to them. There not your real friends. Find people who can accept you for who you are.

No point on changing your username.

 

Since they've/he/whatever had seen this site and knows what you've posted here, so who the fck cares? They're the one being the lame asses stalking you. Don't bother. Just don't.

 

Let me tell you this. School can be 2 things.

 

- It can be the most memorable thing in your life

- It can be the most shittiest memory in your life

 

When you further your studies to college, its a whole different world and those who make fun of you in school will definitely regret it. nerds, popularity, losers, yada yada yada.. All those things will be gone and trust me, You'll learn your shitty moments in life by experience. Also your best weapon is Patience. Your time will come and if you had that strong willpower to be patience, you'll pretty much be able to go through anything.

 

Same for those who are having a hard time nowadays not only Kinode in this forum. Be patience. Please please please Be patience. Sure you will have a hard time right now but its better to go down hill now and be on top later rather than being on top first and go down hill later because life gets harder in the future and its best to experience those problems now rather than later.

 

I mean of course its a bad thing to experience hardships. Just be prepare for anything in life. Anything can happen. If you're unprepared and shit things happen to you on the spot, calm down, close your eyes, think on what can you do to make the situation stable and you'll be fine.

 

I don't even know if this is already part of the topic. Sorry Kinode. Kinda let it out for a moment there.

It would've been interesting to have met you in real-life haha, I had no idea you were so different online vs real.

 

I guess, there are some of use who aren't much different either, I can be a musician when I am "Catmaster0116" online, otherwise as "me" I am just another ugly ordinary university boy with his fair share of social and family problems

 

Most of my friends and half my family know me on youtube as catmaster0116, I have one other channel nobody know about (thank god).

 

But you know what, just because you haven't had a successful relationship means your time has not come yet

I'm sure those who wait for a proper mature relationship are bound to have a fulfilling relationship VS those who rush in with 'superficial love' or "Puppy love".

 

Either way, as for homophobes, I don't care what sexuality anyone is for that matter - everyone is extremely unique. If someone puts you down, bully you or discriminate you for it, that's their problem and their opinion - you need only to ignore them.

 

When ur feeling down Kinode-san, listen to "FIGHT THE BLUES, by UTADA HIKARU"

I find this line most inspiring

"We fight the blues, くよくよしてちゃ敵が喜ぶ 男も女もタフじゃなきゃね"

 

I hope what we have said can help you see the light in darkness, even if just a little

I hope things work out between you and your "Acquaintances"

You have our utmost support!

 

All the best Kinode-san

Hi I'm Kinode.

And hi I'm Felipe.

Two different people, yet the same one.

We're nothing like each other though.

-Kinode is a fairly cool guy full of friends around him to support him, people to talk to, people who are just like him.

-Nothing can ever break him down. Honestly there's no harm possible to Kinode.

-He has problems but everyone understands them and accepts him.

-He's someone who's evolved a lot.

-Kinode is happy.

 

And them there's Felipe.

-Felipe is the weird guy with very few friends, no one to talk to, no one like him.

-He can be broken down by anything. Everyone is better than him, no one wants to talk to him unless it's probably to make fun of him.

-He is full of problems no one is aware of, but he can't talk about them to anyone, because no one would accept him and understand what he's going through. He'd like to just get rid of those problems but they'd only bring worse ones.

-He tries not to get involved much in anything.

-Felipe is somewhat sad.

 

As you can see, I have two lives, one in which I'm happy, one in which I'm somewhat sad. Definitely not happy.

As long as I have one happy life, though, I'm ok with it. But then in the other, I get shit from everyone telling me to lay my happy life down and get happier on the one I'm somewhat sad on.

However, there is no way it can get better, really. Not unless I take the risk of it only getting worse.

Let me tell you guys a bit more about Felipe.

-He has this Good luck charm. It's an amethyst, and it helps bring confidence and luck to him. Doesn't aways work.

-He has a pretty busy week.And it'll only get busier through the year.

-He's almost old enough to get a part time job as an apprentice, which he plans on getting.

-He writes a diary, which he spends most of his time writing on, mostly during classes since he doesn't have much time in the afternoon.

-He has his own theory/religion that is still being "thought on".

-He's never had a successful relationship.

 

So I guess that's most of what you guys need to know about the "real me".

In a way, I should be thankful for what I have on my real life. I have a lot of stuff and enough to have a successful future as a person, but my social life sucks almost too much.

I have 3 big problems I m facing right now:

-Struggling with my "forbidden love" however cliché that sounds.

-Struggling with my social life.

-Struggling to not let these two lives interact in anyway.

 

Let's talk about that last one.

You can see my two lives are pretty firetrucking different. There's no way to picture them merged as one, right?

Er, yeah. This is where the problem pops up.

In my real life, I have a "friend". This "friend", somehow got ito the "Kingdom Hearts series", which he is a complete NOOB on but thinks he knows everything about.

This friend, upon browsing about the franchise, found THIS SITE. Which I happened to mention, and then revealed my second name, Kinode. Kinode is my second name in almost everywhere on the Internet, so I said it on another subject, and he RECOGNIZED me in his site.

From what I know of he doesn't have an account although he's mentioned wanting to create one.

And I KNOW he looks at the forums and I've proven he already stalked me for he's mentioned reading about him in my profile page several times. If you go on my "about me", you'll know what I mean.

now let's just say, this guy is a firetrucking HOMOPHOBE. And he refuses to say that word, but he's very firetrucking disrespectful against homosexuality. You know where this is going, right?

I'm... very intimate with you guys. I can trust all of you. In that school, though, my 'friends' are the ones that betrayed me and screwed me over the most, in fact, I think the only people who have screwed me over ARE my friends. then, another friend of his starting getting into Kingdom Hearts as well. This one, who used to be my friend AGEESSSSS ago but I kinda hate him now, really. No different from him, he's also a homophobe, and probably more of one.

He's mentioned KH13 before. He has also stated he's "seen the thread", but saying he was joking, then saying he was serious, then saying he was joking again so I'm pretty confused.

I'm not going to stop being intimate with you guys. You're the only ones i can trust. But I'm not sure what to do about these two.

they claim to not spy on me, and I've asked them not to come on the site but of course they're going to be stubborn and probably be even more eager to find stuff to use against me.

Someone PLEASE help me. I'm not sure at all what todo about this. I've considered a username change so they won't recognize me but I don't wanna let 'Kinode' go...

._.

 

First i would have NEVER guessed that someone can bring Kinode down. Dude! You are one of the most cool people of this site! Why not in real life? Coolness is running through your blood you have just to ignore every stupid person and comes to critisize you.

 

BWHAHAHAHA Screw them!! They are not worth it! ... F*CK THEM!!!

 

And just do me a favor and show them the real felipe-kindoe cuz i know that in a way... They are the same person!! Believe in your self and you will arrive at the future you want. Who knows maybe tomorrow you can be the coolest dude in you school!

 

Don't change your username! I wan't the Kindoe that hates "Hi's" and he is cool to saty and fight hes fears!!!!!

 

And something stupid i relised... All this time i was calling you Kindoe

Kinode i don't know you much...but your a good friend..and don't change your User name it fits you.

Kinode i don't know you much...but your a good friend..and don't change your User name it fits you.

 

Ikr ;o;

About the school part.... I was just like you until this year, when I changed schools. REALLY, if I had stayed in the old one... hmmm let's say I'd be depressed by now, considering that I lost my great grandad 2 months ago.... But things turned out to be so good for me! So many friends now.... Now it's a normal social life.... So maybe changing schools could help a bit? Don't know, but maybe... And yeah, I hope everything turns out to be okay pretty soon.... Don't change your username... They're just idiots -- if they want to spy you, then let them. You're part of our big family here, and don't let anyone interfere.... They need to find something better to do than spy you... why don't join the CIA then? Eh, trying to make you laugh, but don't know if I was successful.... But what I want to say is that you don't need to change anything because of anyone... Just be who you want to be here....

 

Ikr ;o;

 

Slime.

 

¬_¬

About the school part.... I was just like you until this year, when I changed schools. REALLY, if I had stayed in the old one... hmmm let's say I'd be depressed by now, considering that I lost my great grandad 2 months ago.... But things turned out to be so good for me! So many friends now.... Now it's a normal social life.... So maybe changing schools could help a bit? Don't know, but maybe... And yeah, I hope everything turns out to be okay pretty soon.... Don't change your username... They're just idiots -- if they want to spy you, then let them. You're part of our big family here, and don't let anyone interfere.... They need to find something better to do than spy you... why don't join the CIA then? Eh, trying to make you laugh, but don't know if I was successful.... But what I want to say is that you don't need to change anything because of anyone... Just be who you want to be here....

 

Really been considering changing schools. I want to come out and see how accepted I am. If things turn out badly, then I'll change schools.

Also the only part that made me laugh was when you said you wanted to make me laugh lol

Just to say, if you have any problems about people making fun of you, please contact me through PM. I have been a great help when it comes to people making fun of others because of their sexual orientation. just saying.~

Just to say, if you have any problems about people making fun of you, please contact me through PM. I have been a great help when it comes to people making fun of others because of their sexual orientation. just saying.~

 

I haven't come out, so not yet, no.

I'll probably wait until a while before mid-year. Then I'll come out.

I haven't come out, so not yet, no.

I'll probably wait until a while before mid-year. Then I'll come out.

 

Alright, but if they still make you feel bad still contact me. My friend hasn't come out and they make fun of him that he is gay even though they dont know that he is actually gay.

Don't listen to them. If they tell ppl your gay then try tell the teachers and ask them for help.

And if they keep stalking you leave it be. Soon their gonna stop and see how dumb they are.

Sorry if I'm not helping.