I'll be officially leaving KH13. I may come back but I honestly don't want to.
A few people on the last thread I made have the mentality that 'If you don't care about KH, why are you on this site for?'. Which has made me feel very unwelcome,
I've had other issues too so don't think I'm just leaving because people imply I should.
I've had numerous problems with other people on here but I'll just end up getting banned since I keep losing my temper all the time. For the sake of my mental health, it's best if I just keep to myself. Some of the people on here are also very rude and offensive, but that's hypocritical of me, since I've also been like that. My mental health is deteriorating, I think it's best if I focus on reality rather than being absorbed into the internet.
I apologise for any rude remarks I've made to anyone and I wish everyone the best of luck in the future . I've been a bit of an ass to some people, I'm sorry for that.
Goodbye! Thank you to Rowbe for being awesome, as well as my best friend on here-Felixx! Flaming Lea has also been very helpful, 2 quid, Trece, Mystics Apprentice, KingdomHearts3, KingdomHearts45, Steventus and Mythril Magician have also been really awesome people. I apologise if I forgot to mention you, I also love you .
Oh and please don't assume I'm being overdramatic or an attention seeker. The story in the tag is why and how I joined the site last year. Be warned, it's sensitive information.
I joined this site last June, I was a HUGE fan of KH back then. I originally joined as a means of overcoming my introverted, pessimistic, depressed side which stemmed from me basically sitting in my room all day and just doing homework and playing games.
In January of 2015 I almost killed myself, the reasons for that are long but to keep it brief, my best and only true friend was diagnosed with depression and began to harm themselves. Being the antisocial fool I was, I didn't have much experience with dealing with these situations and a few times I accidentally ended up making them... harm themselves. Through all of that, they kept me by their side and we were still best friends. They said a few times it was their fault and that they shouldn't blame me, but that's besides the point.
I felt like sh**, they were slowly hurting themselves and I couldn't do anything about it, every time I did, I just made everything worse. I was useless, how could I call myself a man when I couldn't even help those in front of me? Eventually, I just started feeling worthless, I never went out anywhere and most of my life consisted of just doing homework or watching TV. People told me there are some things you can't control but I never liked following that idea, it just seemed selfish to watch someone else self harm whilst I just sat there. Not to mention I always felt different from others, my friends would always surpass me at everything which just made me feel useless since I already sucked at everything. I could barely kick a ball. People would never notice me unless I did something stupid.
So I started to ... myself and at the end of January I began to consult the school counselor after almost ending my life. She didn't do much and I basically had to fix my problems by myself.
Anyhow, come the summer some stuff happened and I slipped back into that sad mode, everything went downhill... That's when I joined this site and gradually, the pain went away, I met new people and could discuss anything. Alas, I'm still an introvert but a lot more happy and carefree around my close friends.
Why AM I telling you this? Because this site saved me from killing myself, that's why. A lot of you guys and gals really made me feel special, I've made some amazing friends. But I think it's best if I leave.
I'll be officially leaving KH13. I may come back but I honestly don't want to.
A few people on the last thread I made have the mentality that 'If you don't care about KH, why are you on this site for?'. Which has made me feel very unwelcome,
I've had other issues too so don't think I'm just leaving because people imply I should.
I've had numerous problems with other people on here but I'll just end up getting banned since I keep losing my temper all the time. For the sake of my mental health, it's best if I just keep to myself. Some of the people on here are also very rude and offensive, but that's hypocritical of me, since I've also been like that. My mental health is deteriorating, I think it's best if I focus on reality rather than being absorbed into the internet.
I apologise for any rude remarks I've made to anyone and I wish everyone the best of luck in the future
. I've been a bit of an ass to some people, I'm sorry for that.
Goodbye! Thank you to Rowbe for being awesome, as well as my best friend on here-Felixx! Flaming Lea has also been very helpful, 2 quid, Trece, Mystics Apprentice, KingdomHearts3, KingdomHearts45, Steventus and Mythril Magician have also been really awesome people. I apologise if I forgot to mention you, I also love you
.
Oh and please don't assume I'm being overdramatic or an attention seeker. The story in the tag is why and how I joined the site last year. Be warned, it's sensitive information.
I joined this site last June, I was a HUGE fan of KH back then. I originally joined as a means of overcoming my introverted, pessimistic, depressed side which stemmed from me basically sitting in my room all day and just doing homework and playing games.
In January of 2015 I almost killed myself, the reasons for that are long but to keep it brief, my best and only true friend was diagnosed with depression and began to harm themselves. Being the antisocial fool I was, I didn't have much experience with dealing with these situations and a few times I accidentally ended up making them... harm themselves. Through all of that, they kept me by their side and we were still best friends. They said a few times it was their fault and that they shouldn't blame me, but that's besides the point.
I felt like sh**, they were slowly hurting themselves and I couldn't do anything about it, every time I did, I just made everything worse. I was useless, how could I call myself a man when I couldn't even help those in front of me? Eventually, I just started feeling worthless, I never went out anywhere and most of my life consisted of just doing homework or watching TV. People told me there are some things you can't control but I never liked following that idea, it just seemed selfish to watch someone else self harm whilst I just sat there. Not to mention I always felt different from others, my friends would always surpass me at everything which just made me feel useless since I already sucked at everything. I could barely kick a ball. People would never notice me unless I did something stupid.
So I started to ... myself and at the end of January I began to consult the school counselor after almost ending my life. She didn't do much and I basically had to fix my problems by myself.
Anyhow, come the summer some stuff happened and I slipped back into that sad mode, everything went downhill... That's when I joined this site and gradually, the pain went away, I met new people and could discuss anything. Alas, I'm still an introvert but a lot more happy and carefree around my close friends.
Why AM I telling you this? Because this site saved me from killing myself, that's why. A lot of you guys and gals really made me feel special, I've made some amazing friends. But I think it's best if I leave.
Peace.
Edited by Shinobi Palace