Phew...this is going to be depressing as fukc

 

Nearly

 

I got into a fight with my step-dad, basically bitching at me for every little thing I did, and I had enough. The anxiety was boiling up quickly. I went into the back room and attempted to hurt myself, but I only could scratch my arm a little bit. Then i stabbed a box for a little bit trying to get it out of my system, since an object is an OK thing to bash and I didn't really want to hurt anyone, god no, I just wanted the feeling to go away, but it didn't.

 

Then I saw there was a high banister, a thick rope light from xmas, and an old couch near it in the room, so the thought came into my head.

 

I put the rope around the banister but i didn't know how to tie a nose and i thought about all the gory details and who id be leaving behind, so I decided not to do it. I never even been able to cut myself proper either, just a little scratch.

 

Then there was an ad for funeral insurance as i came out of the room

 

Nice

 

Rather Ironic..

 

I don't know much, but I do know suicide is never the answer. I'm always here if you ever need someone to talk to

You  know,I thought the title was a joke a first but damn.....anyway don't let it get to as the guy above me said suicide/violence on the whole is never the answer.

1. Suicide doesn't stop the pain - it merely spreads it to others instead ( your friends and family)

2.Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem .

3. Whatever troubles you , it WILL PASS. Trust me. It always does .

4. There is only one YOU and that makes you special and irreplaceable. Always remember this .

1. Suicide doesn't stop the pain - it merely spreads it to others instead ( your friends and family)2.Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem .3. Whatever troubles you , it WILL PASS. Trust me. It always does .4. There is only one YOU and that makes you special and irreplaceable. Always remember this .

yeah, what Lea said, she's always right so you can trust her

I put the rope around the banister but i didn't know how to tie a nose and i thought about all the gory details and who id be leaving behind, so I decided not to do it. I never even been able to cut myself proper either, just a little scratch.

That's a very handy defensive mechanism for avoiding the unthinkable [one that people here have drilled into my head a while back]. 

 

As odd as this may sound, this site can become your safe haven and place to vent'/calm down when you need to. There are people who are more than willing to help/talk with you through your tough times [i myself included and it also helps that I've been 'under the knife' several times so I know how you feel].

 

Here's something my little brother told me after catching me with the pistol to my head on one instance: When you feel like you can't take it anymore and want to just end it all. Stop. Stop and wait for 10 minutes. The overwhelming feeling will usually go away afterwards. Honest to god, this actually works [and has some logical reasoning behind it]. A useful tip that I think would be nice to pass along.

Glad to hear that you're fine.

 

Also, you should write dark comedies. Like Funny or Die or something.

You have Kingdom Hearts 3 to live for! That makes life worth living. This is not a joke. This is serious.

Good that you didn't do it and it's also good that you couldn't hurt yourself. I wish at least the latter would apply to myself as well. My left arm is so full of scars it could be described as one big scar. So keep it up like that. It's always good if you think hard for reasons to keep living, like you did this time. Always do that when you come to such a point. I do the same, but there is also my fear of killing myself in the first place along with what I would hate to leave behind. I never tried to kill myself though, but I wanted to stop living often enough.

The very early morning of October 4th 2013 was when I nearly hung myself. Ever since then I haven't come close but things really have not gotten better or worse since then. And I just noticed that was 5 moths ago today. I still remember it clearly.

All that suicide does is make others hurt. It's never the right thing to do.

 

You have Kingdom Hearts 3 to live for! That makes life worth living. This is not a joke. This is serious.

Acting like a game is the one thing that makes life worth living is the most childish and ignorant thought I've ever heard in my life.

All that suicide does is make others hurt. It's never the right thing to do. Acting like a game is the one thing that makes life worth living is the most childish and ignorant thought I've ever heard in my life.

I don't know what this guy has to live for, but what I do know is KH has had a huge impact on people & has changed lives. Sorry you can't wrap your head around the power of Kingdom Hearts. It makes people happy, so maybe it isn't as stupid as you think it is.

I don't know what this guy has to live for, but what I do know is KH has had a huge impact on people & has changed lives. Sorry you can't wrap your head around the power of Kingdom Hearts. It makes people happy, so maybe it isn't as stupid as you think it is.

It makes people happy, and has impacted my life. If I didn't like it, I wouldn't even be on this site. However, there is MUCH more to life than a video game.

It makes people happy, and has impacted my life. If I didn't like it, I wouldn't even be on this site. However, there is MUCH more to life than a video game.

Well I was just giving him one example. Seeing how this is a KH site, I thought it'd be fitting & kinda funny. He doesn't need a pity party, he needs laughter. Sure there are more reasons to live, but when I think of reason to live, I'd be lying if I said KH doesn't come to mind.

Edited March 5, 201411 yr by NO_HEART_XIII

Well I was just giving him one example. Seeing how this is a KH site, I thought it'd be fitting & kinda funny. He doesn't need a petty party, he needs laughter. Sure there are more reasons to live, but when I think of reason to live, I'd be lying if I said KH doesn't come to mind.

Some people aren't in the mood for jokes when they're upset/depressed.

Don't.

 

You.

 

Dare.

 

I like you way too much, don't ever think anything like that again. I swear to God I will drive out and find you if I sense you trying to commit suicide.

Some people aren't in the mood for jokes when they're upset/depressed.

Yeah well, read the name. Empathy isn't my forte. I make my friends laugh if they're upset, but I don't know this guy, so I don't know why I bothered. My bad, proceed to pity him & try to make him feel better by pretending you know him well enough to know that his life is worth living & that you could possibly understand what he is going through. I don't know you & I don't care to, so your opinion is irrelevant to me. Goodbye.

1. Suicide doesn't stop the pain - it merely spreads it to others instead ( your friends and family)

2.Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem .

3. Whatever troubles you , it WILL PASS. Trust me. It always does .

4. There is only one YOU and that makes you special and irreplaceable. Always remember this .

Perfect reasons, and explanations right there. Take notes from Lea, she knows what she's talking about when it comes to this stuff.

 

 

That's a very handy defensive mechanism for avoiding the unthinkable [one that people here have drilled into my head a while back]. 

 

As odd as this may sound, this site can become your safe haven and place to vent'/calm down when you need to. There are people who are more than willing to help/talk with you through your tough times [i myself included and it also helps that I've been 'under the knife' several times so I know how you feel].

 

Here's something my little brother told me after catching me with the pistol to my head on one instance: When you feel like you can't take it anymore and want to just end it all. Stop. Stop and wait for 10 minutes. The overwhelming feeling will usually go away afterwards. Honest to god, this actually works [and has some logical reasoning behind it]. A useful tip that I think would be nice to pass along.

Perfect example right here.

 

You were in the heat of the moment, just chill out for a few minutes, and the thoughts of suicide will go away. Now for my methods.

 

If you think about suicide, think about what, and who you are leaving behind. Next, create a goal that motivates you to keep going, and maybe land you a dream job, whatever that will keep you going. Then, research music, I always find music the best method of cooling down. Find an musician you can connect with. For example, I can easily connect with Goo Goo Dolls and Linkin Park and understand their lyrics easily.

 

Don't worry about your Stepfather, as long as you live, he's fighting a losing battle. If you choose suicide, he would probably feel even more worse later on in the future, and probably screw some sh!t up and face heavy consequences.

 

You probably lived only a quarter of your life so far. You haven't live to the fullest until you die naturally and with a smile on your face, showing that you lived an epic life. 

 

Take KH13 members and my words seriously, you don't know what you're missing out on. You got this, now live life!

I have some advise. It is good that you came here to vent. This is the first step in the healing process. Find someone you feel like you can trust, be it here on this site, or in your hometown and DO talk with them. I know it is very hard to do this. I too went through a very dark period in my life not too long ago. It took me to places in my mind I NEVER want to visit again. My anger was directed at the ppl who were hurting me and I wanted to hurt them back. In a very bad way too. But I finally worked up enough courage to speak up and you know what? Things actually got better for me after that. Those that were hurting left, as well as my anger toward them. I'm fine now and am a better person because of my experiences. If you want to talk more, you know where to find me.

 

Edited March 5, 201411 yr by WakelessDream

Well, I know that life can sometimes be hard and that it can be cruel as well, but you can never let it get to you.  Life is too precious a gift to be wasted, and no matter what your situation, you need to persevere and keep on fighting in life.  What many people say here is true.  All these feelings will eventually pass, and you'll feel better by not hurting yourself.  There are people who care about you, and if you would have committed suicide, those people would have been scarred for life.  So thank God that he stopped you from doing so.  Anyways, there's this nice catchphrase that I learned from the anime Blood+.  It's nonkurunaisa, which means live for today and look forward to tomorrow.  If things turn out bad today, then push it aside and face the problems today brings, but always look forward to tomorrow, because a new tomorrow always brings the promise of a better day than the one before.  To experience all that you want to in life, you must keep on living every day, gaining experience and maturity as an adult.  And well, if you ever feel like that again, know that you can come here to us in KH13 and we'll offer comfort and wise words to give you advice.  On this, thank God and thank Nomura, because if Kingdom Hearts didn't exist, this site wouldn't exist, and therefore things could have played out differently.  Anyways, I'm really glad you didn't end up killing yourself, you did the right thing.  For that I am proud of you.

Edited March 5, 201411 yr by Golden Fighter

It was only morning.....

 

Just go talk to someone.

I've never REALLY tried to go through with it, but I know about those kinds of thoughts.

Just...

Things will get better: no troubles or sorrows last forever. Take a breather, think everything over.

Take a walk, play a video game, binge watch anime...

Anything but place that noose and take the final step.

Taking your life will only leave sorrow and pain behind, believe me: a very unhelpful and undoable solution to a minor kick in life's cloth.

Don't give up: we're here for you, when ever you need it.

Or if you don't: you know, which ever.

I hope I helped.

"Share things with people " he said .....

 

"This is the Real Life & Personal subforum" he said ....

"Share things with people " he said .....

 

"This is the Real Life & Personal subforum" he said ....

 

What?

What?

Well ,didn't it get a little bit more than personal ?

Thank you so much guys ;~;

 

I had a talk to my counsellors and my mum and I feel much better now, I can't believe I even thought about it